for you only // colby brock [SEQUEL: ONE NIGHT] (Completed)

46 》 day 1000

Ronnie's POV

"What do you mean there is a 50/50 chance?!" I argue with the doctor.

It wasn't his fault and I shouldn't be taking my anger out on him.

He is just trying to help,

"These things are- take a big impact on someone so it is a 50/50 chance of recovery. He might recover but you should prepare for the worst, I'm sorry" the doctor said calmly before walking away with his assistant.

Colby was under anaesthetic and about to have surgery.

Frank enough, i was fearful.

Fearful that I would never get to say goodbye.

Our last memories would be him in agonising pain,

"Ronnie!" I hear from the hallway that leads into the waiting room.

A hallway that many loved ones and family had walked to hear horrific news.

Hopefully, I wasn't one of them people.

I turn to see Aaron running towards me followed by the rest of our family.

I stand up in relief,

"You don't know how glad I am too see you" I sigh as I wrap my arms around him.

He hugs me back and pulls away.

I hug everyone else and we all take a seat.

There was an elderly couple in the corner and a teenage boy with headphones in.

Then there was our crew.

I don't know what I would do without them,

"So.." Sam said hesitantly.

They were all thinking it but were all to scared to ask the vital question,

"The doctors did a CT scan before he went in for surgery and they discovered scarring in his stomach. They think the blood and the pain.. they think that he had a stomach cyst or ulser that burst which ruptured his stomach lining," I finished,

"Oh.." Amanda spit out as she looked down at her hands,

"Well that's not that bad. He is going to okay isn't he?" Corey said hopefully,

"The doctor said that- um-" I began with the intention of not finishing,

"The doctor said what?" Sam encouraged.

I looked amongst all the worried faces who were hoping for a miracle,

"The doctor said that he should make a full recovery" I lied.

They all sighed with relief and looked so happy.

Happy that they wouldn't lose him.

I couldn't tell them something so horrific when they were so low.

So I kept the possibility of Colby not recovering to myself,

"Did he say what could of caused- you know-" Katrina asked, referring to his condition,

"He said that the common causes are use of anti-inflammatory drugs or a bacterial infection like a virus or stomach bug."

For the most part of waiting we sat in silence, sparking up fake conversations every now and again.

But the truth was, that I didn't want to talk.

I wanted to just sit in silence.

Because they thought that everything would be okay but I knew that there was a high possibility that his surgery could go sideways.

His heart could stop beating.

The heart that was devoted to me would stop working.

He was my first love and my only love.

Without him, I would be nothing.

He has pulled me back from the darkest times and lived the brighter memories with me.

He has been by my side since day one and I wanted to see it through to day 1000.

Without him by my side, is like a car without an engine.

Both need eachother or both are meaningless.

And I was meaningless without him.

Q: am I that heartless that I would kill him?