Tyrie POV
Okay so today was Tae and my three month anniversary. I know that she wants to do something really simple. She didn't want me spending loads of money on the perfect date.
It's one of the things I love about her. She is selfless and understanding. She isn't materialistic or after me for the things I could give her. My baby treats me like a king and knows that I work hard to help out my mother. Half of the money I make from working at the warehouse goes to help her with the bills.
I decided to keep the date simple but I still added some of her favorite things like food. I was going to buy all of her favorite foods and snacks like a buffet. I set up the living room like a big fort in front of the tv. Shunt'A wants to watch the newest Insidious movie so that was on Netflix. The ground was covered in a big rug and little pillows and other girly shit. The lights were off but I hung up some lights over the tv to set the mood.
I was dressed in a black sweatshirt and black pajamas. The theme was like a pajama party. I had told her to dress for the occasion. Now all I had to do was wait for her to show up.
Shunt'A
It was our three month anniversary and I was freaking out. I think Ty wants to have sex tonight. I mean that's what guys think about right? Sex. We haven't had it yet and I know he wants to. He never says anything, but I know he does. He's an eighteen year old boy. That's all they fucking think about. Don't get me wrong I want to do it just as much as he does, but I'm still not ready for something like that. Yet. I just need more time to make sure it's what I really want. My biggest fear is regretting something like that.
I don't want to have sex then it turns out that he was just using me or something. I know that I should have more faith in him and our relationship. I've always had a weird fear of being exposed by a boyfriend, or having a lover of mine run his mouth about what we do in the bedroom. I don't know why. I think it is because a lot of girls get exposed on the internet at my school of messy teenagers. Whenever we get really close to doing something more than head I get nervous and anxious about what he'll think of my body. What if he doesn't like what he sees or somehow loses love for me once he experiences me. I also don't want to not be good in bed. There's a lot clouding my mind.
Maybe I'm over reacting. He never said he wants to have sex. Then again he told me to come over really late on our anniversary dressed in light pajamas.
Stop overreacting!
Maybe he just wants to have a simple date.
In our pajamas though?
Yes bitch! In your pajamas, maybe he wants to see. I don't know!
"I have to sit down." I murmured to myself. I put my face in my hands and calmed down. I thought about my relationship. Through the whole thing Tyrie has never pressured me to do anything I didn't want. He gives me control over what we do sexually. I know that he loves me a lot, but I don't want to keep him waiting to long. Who knows how long he is willing to wait for me.
My phone lit up with a notification from Ty.
Baby🍆😥😍: bae wya
Me: I'm still getting ready. I'm otw
Baby🍆😥😍: aight don't take too long tho
Me: don't rush me ugly
Baby🍆😥😍: girl who ugly? Where?
Me: YOU wit dem nappy ass dreads. . .need a retwist 😂
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