How to Break a Heart (To be published by LIB)

Thirty-Three

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Allie

Despite the fact that I was pushing Dominic away from me, it only pushed him back and gave him the reason to stay with me. I didn’t drop the break up word but I already told him everything and explained to him how I was letting him go.

The plan failed so bad, and not only that–it only made things more complicated than it already was. It backfired. I was suppose to push the one I love away to keep him from hurting but I just ended up pushing myself into someone else and putting both of our hearts into danger.

I feel like a monster.

I’ve always wondered why God gave me this sickness. I’ve always questioned why I was so ill fated, but now I can almost see why he wrote me off with something as heavy as death. Because I am a terrible person who makes terrible choices. And simply because I deserve it anyway.

“Hey, do you really want to go to class?” yan agad ang tanong sa akin ni Dominic, pagkalabas na pagkalabas ko ng bahay. It’s been two days since I got out of the hospital, my parents insisted on resting for a short while and we compromised on two days. Ayaw na nila akong pumasok, they said they don’t want to take risks but I told them that death is inevitable and that made them shut up, then sad which really put me on a guilt trip. I’ve already accepted how I’m dying earlier than my own parents, sila na lang halos ang hindi makatanggap ng bagay na iyon.

“Oo naman. I may be dying but I’m still a college student, you know.” biro ko dito pero hindi man lang siya natawa, miski nga isang ngiti–hindi niya ginawa. Normally, Dominic would snort at my jokes even if they were lame. I guess he doesn’t find my death amusing. Who would? Dominic might act like everything’s normal but I know he’s in pain and that’s what I’m trying to ignore. He’s also trying to hide it dahil pagsasabihan ko lang siya, I’ll tell him that it’s the reason why I plotted everything with Arron. I wanted him to hate me para hindi na siya mag-alala para sa akin. I wanted him to move on with his life without feeling any grief or guilt in his heart.

Granted, my way was too cruel–too cold, but it was the most convenient and quickest way. It would sting, a lot, but it will be worth it than have him cry over me just because I was dying.

Nang makapasok ako sa loob ng sasakyan, isinara agad ni Dominic ang pinto at pagkatapo ay umikot agad siya para sumakay sa driver’s seat.

“Sorry.” tahimik na sabi ko dito.

“Don’t ever joke about death again.”

“I’m just trying to lighten up the mood.”

“Well, it’s not funny.” seryosong sabi sa akin ni Dominic kaya napatahimik naman ako. I bowed my head and bit my lip.

“Sorry.” Dominic sighed. I felt him move from his seat. Naramdaman ko ang init ng katawan niya when he fixed my seatbelt for me bago ayusin ang sa kanya at paandarin ang kotse.