Destined with the Bad Boy

Chapter 10

Chapter 10

In Denial

I just wanted to tell Zimmer about it so somehow he can help me to this shit that's bothering me. And just so you know, Zimmer knows that the "her" on my text is Abigail.

Sa barkada, when it comes to this one word, four letter thing called love, its Zim you can talk to and get fucking advices. Kami ni Dominic, wala kaming alam sa mga ganito.

Biglang tumunog ulit yung phone ko.

From: Zim

In liking someone you don't think bro you feel

Told you. He's an expert.

To: Zim

I dont know bro Im fckng confused

Reply ko dito.

From: Zim

Woah dude its the first time for u to act like that

Before I could reply. Tinawagan niya na ko.

"Zup bro, don't wanna be gay but screw this tell me what you feel man." He said.

"Now what? We gonna have a shitty girl talk? The fuck, bro. No way!" I said. He's crazy.

"Don't be such a brat and just tell me so I could help, why the hell you said that you like her?" Fine!

"Damn it. I don't know what the hell I feel. Kung gusto ko ba siya o hindi. Hindi ko alam! All I know is I care about her. I think about her.. all the time man. All the fucking time." There, I said it.

"You know what, you like her. Definitely." Sabi naman nito kaya naman wala akong naisagot.

"I think you are just in denial about this. Wanna make sure?"

"How?"

"I got a plan."

"What plan?" Tanong ko kay Zimmer.

"Wait. Fuck it bro! Naalala ko tuloy bigla si Bobbie! Yung dati mong hinahanap nung mga first year pa lang tayo?"

"Just spill the plan bro." Kung ano ano pa yung inaalala. Tsk.

"Funny that this is prolly the second time you asked for help ever since that online search. Damn."

"Zim sasabihin mo ba yung plano o ano?!" Ang dami pang sinasabi. Naiinip na ko.

Nung sinabi na ni Zimmer yung plano niya. Walang duda. It's a lame plan. Pero syempre, I said yes.

I-susurprise daw namin si Abigail sa bahay niya, magkakaron ng biglaang sleep over bukas sakanila. Kaming V3 kasama si Paui. Ang sabi kasi ni Zimmer baka daw confuse lang ako, na baka gusto ko lang kasama si Abigail bilang kaibigan. Kaya bukas ita-try namin mag bond na kasama ang buong barkada.

Matagal tagal na din kaming hindi nag ba-bond ng Venoms. Sana lang pumayag si Abi. Mukang no choice naman din siya pag nandoon na kami. Pag hindi kasi sakanila, baka hindi lang yun sumama. Mahirap na.

Sana masigurado ko na 'tong nararamdaman ko. Ayoko ng ganito.

Dati naman I just play around. I get whoever I want and dump them whenever I want. Pero ngayon iba na. Its not me at all. But if its all for her...

Then so be it.

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Dumating na din yung araw ng planong sleep over. Pumayag naman din dito si Paui. Makakatanggi pa ba yun, e parang sila na din ni Zimmer. Aba ewan ko bahala sila. Basta ako, I need to clarify what I feel.