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Chapter 5

'Alexis'
What am I even doing? I ask myself as I head into the hospital. I don't even want to be friends with her so why I here? Why am I so worried about some dyke? I reach the waiting room and notice Abbie crying. What the hell happened? Mom found out about her feelings for you. I step back, she's here because of me? I question feeling like a thousand knives were just jabbed into my body. Abbie nods. Our mom couldn't handle the fact that one of her children isn't straight, so she beat her, and badly. It was poor Caylor who found her. (Kennedy's 5 year old brother) oh my god. Have you seen her yet? She shakes her head. They won't let me. I turn the other way and run towards the nurses station. Can I help you? Could you tell me anything on Kennedy Walden? She types something on the computer. Relation? I stumble over this question before finally answering. Girlfriend. The nurse glances at me. I'm afraid I can't give any information on the patient unless they're family. I glare at her, just give me the room number. She shakes her head, sorry kid I can't. I groan not giving up but walking out. I wait a few minutes until the nurse leaves and run in to find the room. 207. I run back out to the waiting room. Abbie lets go. She shakes her head, Lex we can't, you heard the doctor she's not allowed visitors. I groan, you let me handle that. Let's go. She's hesitant at first but then follows me. As we approach the room a nurse stops us. This patient is not allowed visitors right now. I'm her god damn sister. Abbie practically screams from behind me. The nurse shakes her head. I step closer. Let me see my girl. I snarl. She steps in front of me but I push past her and I storm into the room, what I see next breaks my heart. Tubes, IVs, machines and fresh cuts. Tears well in my eyes as I walk over and grab her head, I notice her eyes slightly open. Abbie? I laugh slightly. Try again. She glances over at me. You came. She smiles weakly. I didn't think you'd care. I tear up again as she moves over. I lay down next to her and wrap my arms around her. I'm so sorry Kenz, I never meant to hurt you. I just didn't know how to react. I can't believe I did all this to you. She shakes her head. This was my mom Lex, not you. It was because of me though and I'm so sorry for that. Why are you here? You're just going to leave again. I press my lips to her forehead and pull her closer to me. I'm not going anywhere.