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R.I.P.E

BirthingCoach: I was his lockscreen?

ChokingIsMyKink: ofc u were, luke sent him that pic a few weeks ago and he adored it

BirthingCoach: luke?

ChokingIsMyKink: yeah, why?

BirthingCoach: I thought Luke hated him

WildHoe: same but it's obvious that he only hated him because he made you so happy

FuckBoi: I don't know LuKe but I'm sure as your best friend it made him happy to see him make you happy

BirthingCoach: I'm sorry that I'm being so depressing guys

Moo: dude

Moo: ur bf just DIED

Moo: how could you NOT be upset?

Moo: ur allowed to be sad for as long as you want, okay? Don't ever apologize for your grief unless it hurts someone in the process, and even then verbal abuse is accepted about two weeks following a persons death and a persons funeral

Moo: that's how I see it anyway

WildHoe: tru, when you're sad you'll do anything to be happy

FuckBoi: dude, too soon

WildHoe: shit, sorry, I didn't mean to be disrespectful

BirthingCoach: it's okay Tyler, I understand what you're saying, Ik u didn't mean to come off as rude

BirthingCoach: it's tru, when you're sad you just want the whole world to make you happy, you'll do anything for a smile, just a small smile

Zoyrk: Jon, do you want to talk about it?

Zoyrk: I get it if you don't want to

BirthingCoach: it hurts

BirthingCoach: not like an emotional hurt, I mean like that's there too, but a physical, aching hurt

BirthingCoach: like, my lungs are gonna give out at any moment, but they keep pumping air for some stupid reason why can't I just stop

BirthingCoach: I walked into Evan's room and he was literally dead, I could've saved him, but I didn't and now I can't sleep knowing that I could've saved him if I had just saw the signs

BirthingCoach: he told me he was scared, that he wanted me to be there with him so that he wouldn't be scared anymore but I couldn't help him because I'm stupid

BirthingCoach: he was so sad and I couldn't see that what kind of boyfriend was I?

BirthingCoach: clearly not a good one

BirthingCoach: I don't feel good

BirthingCoach: I feel like the world is closing in on me, nearly suffocating me but it still lets me breathe

BirthingCoach: it feels like torture, id rather have my heart ripped out of my chest than feel like this

BirthingCoach: is this what it feels like to have your heart broken?

FuckBoi: don't worry Jon, you'll get through this, I promise

BirthingCoach: I promised Evan I'd be there for him, then he killed himself

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Now showing private messages between FuckBoi and ChokingIsMyKink

FuckBoi: Craig

FuckBoi: I have to tell you something

ChokingIsMyKink: yes?

FuckBoi: you can't tell anyone

ChokingIsMyKink: what? Why?

FuckBoi: because it's inappropriate

FuckBoi: because I'm still in love with Evan

FuckBoi: but I can't tell anyone

ChokingIsMyKink: does Jordan know?

FuckBoi: I can't tell Jordan

FuckBoi: he'd kill me