MY BROKEN DREAM💔

part 29

Raman was stunned at what ishita asked, yes even he wanted to love her madly shower her with all his love, but not like this, not when she was this variable, this broken. He wanted to love her when she was in her senses when there were out of this phase in their relationship, he wanted to tell her everything first and that what he was going to do right at this second.

Raman- Jaan what you saying....

Ishita- If you love you than prove it..i....i want you to love you.

Raman- ARE YOU OUT OF YOU MIND ISHITA, YES IT TRUE I LOVE YOU JAAN I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH YOU ONLY YOU, BUT THERE ARE MANY WAYS FOR ME TO PROVE MY LOVE TO YOU THAN TAKING YOU INTO MY BAD. AT LEAST NOT LIKE THIS PLEASE. I REALLY LOVE YOU AND WILL FOREVER LOVE YOU, DON'T EVER DOUBT THAT. NEVER ASK ME TO TAKE YOU TO BAD TO PROVE MY LOVE NEVER.

Raman- Ishita i want to tell everything the reason behind everything why i left, why i told you to ador....i want to start a new life with you, i know i have hurt you a lot. But give me one last chance just one chance to give you and Adi the best life, i promise you i will never repeat this mistake, i....i will keep you happy all the time,never let any tears befall your eyes just please forgive me i'm repainting for my mistake, i know i have hurt you a lot, look you are even crying because of me. I hate my self for making you cry everyday, for not being there when you both needed me.

Ishita- Than tell me make my heart at easy, tell me that what ever word you said you were not the one who said then, tell me i was wrong in thinking that you have broken my dream our dream, i have tried to give you all the happiness but what you have gave me till date, nothing but tears. Am trying everyday to live my life in the present, but every time it have its own way of letting me live in my past. The past that am trying my best not to relive, in every second of my life. I have craved to have a life with you, but it was just a shot lived happiness of my. I have no straight in me to listen to what you have to say Raman, am trying to be strong for Adi but ever time people bring up my past i am not able to be strong at all. I have come here to know everything but now i don't think i want to know anything.

Raman- Ishita please i never meant to hurt you intentional. Just allow me to let out this guilt out of my chest please.

Ishita- Guilt, how selfish you can be Raman, the only thing you so consent about is your GUILT. Believe me what you feeling right now it nothing. If i tell you how you massed up my life you will surely kill your self Mr Raman Kumer Bhalla. As much as i hate you, the truth wont change that you are my son father and i will hate to see you hurt.

Raman- Ishita please you know i did not mean it like that.... And wont you listen to me this once please, let me explain!!!

Ishita- Fine you have 10 minute to explain your self.

Raman - What ever i did was needed back then, i had to let you go even when i never wanted too but what choice i had ishu. I couldn't do anything your mo.....mom was not giving me any other choice really.

Ishita- Amma?

Raman- We both know that your mother and sister hates me. But still i wanted us to work, i wanted to spend my life with you.

Ishita- If you would have fought more for us. And Appa he loved you Raman you should have used that love to win them over. Just like i did, my relationship with your mom did not just turned up to be this good i had to prove my self to her that am the one for her son,no matter how she can be all she wanted was my well being and i guess after all she was
Right we were never meant to bee. What did Amma said to you?.

Raman- I did ishita maybe it hard for you to believe but i did, how was i supposed to gain her love when she never gave me a chance to even talk to her only your father who understood me better. You know your mom said that if your father in not against our relationship she was going to kill her self, how could i have lived knowing that i was the reason for her death, knowing that because of our love someone had to die, i was not willing to wrong you at such extent. Am sorry ishu am really sorry. I thought that if i leave, your life will be better without me.

Ishita- BETTER!!!! What you mean by better Raman?. Okey let say what ever you did was for me, my family. Why you never share everything that Amma said to you. why you took a decision for my life, you should have let me choose. But no you took one stupid decision that destroyed not just us but our families as well. I have promised you that what ever life gives we will fight it together,but you never trusted that promise of my. What are you 5 years to be blackmailed by Amma, she is selfish Raman and selfish people never died. She said that to separate us and see she succeeded because you let her too. I never betrayed you Raman not even your small promises, i have always trusted you but because of that trust i.... i lost my so...
It don't matter now let me go.

Raman- Because of my trust what did you lost ishu? tell me.

Ishita- In everything i said that is the only thing you heard. You know i prey to God everyday that the hatred i have for you in my mind i can have the same in my heart for you.

Raman- Don't you dare say that ishu, you know i want a chance to change Everything and i will just one chance jaan.

Ishita- What you will change if i gave you that chance, there is nothing to change, there is nothing.

Raman- MARRY ME.......

Ishita- Please Raman...

Raman- Jaan i mean it, i want to wipe your tears away from your eyes forever. Marry me.

Ishita- Don't you dare ask me this now Raman, just don't, you don't own me anything to marry me, and i don't think if i even want to be married to you.

Raman- Ishita it not like that.... i love you that why am asking you this.

Ishita- They was a time when i wanted to hear you asking me that question, i would have given everything at that time just to be your wife...i waited and that day never come. Tell me you asking this just because of Adi?.

Raman- Ishita,please why you putting wrong words in,my mouth. Am asking you simply because i love you, i know i should have ask you long back,but i was a fool to understand the importance you hold in my life. I had to loose you to understand it, and now i don't want to wait another second to make you wife my life.

Ishita- What if Amma don't agree than what!!!.

Raman- I don't care anymore jaan, i want to be with you and i won't let anyone stand in our way of happiness, not even Amma i promise you. I will marry you regardless of what she think of me i love you and that should be enough.

Ishita- Than what had happened back than what have happed to this confident then. When was this eager this confident Raman,you should have fought for us, like i did for your child.....you should have proven that you love me as much as i did. If i say yes, how will i know that you will hold my hand forever, you will be by my side whenever i need you. Ooh you will live me in the middle just like you did. Am sorry Raman but i want to be selfish just once and put my self first before everything, just this once i put my self before my son and am saying NO i cant marry you, am sorry.