lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • fifteen

2 years ago

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I was brought out of my state when I heard a knock on my window. I shook my head before letting Taehyung in like usual.

"Hey Park I didn't get to see you last night!" he cheered as he jumped up and down on my bed as I sat silently.

"Sorry I was busy," I mumbled while fiddling with my fingers.

"Hey, what's wrong?" he calmed down a bit more and noticed my low energy.

"O-Oh um nothing it's fine," I looked down still.

"Nah what's up seriously?" he tapped my arm egging me on. I looked up to see a very curious Taehyung waiting for an answer.

"Uh... it's hard to explain-"

"It's fine I'll understand," Taehyung cut in.

"Um well... last night I kinda... lost my virginity," I rubbed the back my head being too scared to look up. It was silent for a while, awkwardness filled the air before I finally looked up.

"Oh, okay then," was all he said before going onto my computer.

"Y-You're not gonna say anything?" I asked confused, he just shrugged.

"Nothing to say," he replied without looking at me.

"O-Okay then..."

Present ∞ time

"Umm, is everything okay?" I asked Taehyung who I noticed kept looking at me every so often. We sat facing each other on my bed with books spread out everywhere. We decided in our free periods we were going to smash out most of our homework.

"Yeah, everything's great," he replied over exaggerated.

I eyed his behaviour, "Are you sure...?" he moved around so awkwardly and never sat still on the bed.

"I just um been thinking," he mumbled.

"About?" I questioned again.

"Just how bad I feel from when you tried to tell me you lost your virginity and I acted like I didn't care," he quickly rushed out his words.

"Oh! Tae that was ages ago, I don't care anymore," I told him kindly.

"No it was bad of me, I should've put my stupidity aside and let you talk, like can you say there have been times where you wanted to tell me stuff but you couldn't because it would make me 'uncomfortable'?" he started to get really passionate and upset. I couldn't help but slowly nod, there had been many times I wanted to rant about guys and relationships but I knew I couldn't. "Exactly," he mumbled.

"Well let's take a break from studying and you can ask me anything you want if it'll help," I offered while moving books around so we could sit closer.

"Oh okay, really?" he questioned confused as I gave a nice smile and a nod. "Well, I guess how did you lose your virginity?" he looked around as he tried to push the words out.

"It uh was with Yugeom not long before he moved away, it wasn't bad, just kind of rushed," it felt so weird to talk like this to him but it was relieving in someway.

"Did you uh... um... did he reach for your head in the movie theatre or did you reach for his?" he bit his lip awkwardly, I found it cute how he used my analogy from a while ago when I needed to find out if he was a top or bottom.