Poem #171

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"Baby can't you see?
I've been trying to hide in different things lately
I take these pretty coloured pills
and they make me feel funny
but at least I'm not feeling for you
And sometimes when that fades
I draw lines in my skin
only one colour comes from it
unless I draw hard enough
sometimes then it looks black
but at least I numb the pain in my heart
but eventually that doesn't work
so i light a match and play with fire
yes it burns, but the colours are so beautiful
and I needed to know there's other beautiful things out there than just you
but when that stops working
I try drowning in music, try focusing on the lyrics
Sure, they it makes me sad
But I wanted to hear something else besides your voice
but in the end
not enough pretty pills
or straight lines
no dancing flames
or loud music
can hide the emptiness in my eyes
because eventually, the feeling fades
And I'm back at square one
searching for something to take my mind off you."
-r.b
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Idk how I feel ab this one but I tried guys
-Your very own broken girl 💜

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