Keith x Reader Oneshots

Moonlight

{Requested}

     I lay in my dark bedroom, a nostalgic tune that drowned out the rushing thoughts in my head. A bleak throb in my heart as images flashed before me, wondering where it all went wrong, a time when I had a secure embrace of the whole world in my arms. A time before it all slipped away, crumpled into bits of dust and ash. A memory that once made my spirits high and my heartstrings pluck into a refrained tune, became one that filled my being in overwhelming melancholy and sorrow. The world became black and white, numb. 

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         The temperature of my body kept rising from my chest to my face as my eyes shifted down to her wonder filled hues as our bodies swayed carelessly in a clumsy waltz beneath the strings of lights that hung from the ceiling like a trail of stars. The chatter of people and blasting of music drowned out as her laugh rang out like a melody, this was a moment I wanted to cherish forever. Though I wasn't much of a dancer, I couldn't pass up the opportunity when she had reached out to me, a huge smile was plastered on her face, her soft hands encasing mine to pull me up from the chair I sat on beside the dance floor that was infested with either couples or groups of friends. 

        I wasn't one to get out on the dance floor, but neither was she from what I knew because of sharing our childhood together, but once she heard the first riffs of the song that played, she grew ecstatic. I knew her better than I knew myself. She was always that peculiar girl who never really stood out, only to my eyes. She was always quiet and distant compared to most our age, she never was one to have many friends, we were both like two peas in a pod growing up so we didn't believe that having other friends was essential, we had each other. 

       While we were doing our little toe-stepping, stumbling movements, I couldn't help but notice that familiar emotion that radiated off of her like the early morning rays of dawn. Her semi-formal styled attire swayed along with the movements of her hips, she couldn't care less if we were ungraceful or inexperienced dancers, she just wanted to live in the moment, not have a single worry in the world. Tresses soft like silk framed her face in such a delicate manner, she was like a little glass doll, intricate and flawless. 

        I remember the late nights we'd stay up in the tree house she had in her backyard for as long we could remember, She'd muse on about our memories being life-long stories. We bathed in the soothing moonlight, our hearts dancing to a beat of their own. I hoped that one day she'd never forget to keep that sympathetic smile that spoke more than a million words, that smile that I fell so hard for. 

                  If only I could go back in time to cherish that moment.

      Throughout every solstice and every passing day, I had watched her grow into the independent individual she had become to this day. And to be completely honest, I couldn't be disappointed in the slightest. She had matured in more ways than I could count, she started to slowly come out of her shell that had sheltered her into the introvert she had always known to be.  I idly watched from her side, talking to new people, becoming acquainted with them. It never occurred to me that it'd ever be a problem, I was always supportive of her decisions and I never had any doubts, however I was too blinded-sided by the events of the future, how this would affect...us.

        As time had gone by, she began to meander. The thread that held us stitched together began to unwind and decay. I began to feel that stray absence cast a shadow over me, She was being accustomed to going out every other day with the people she had gotten to know over time.  Something inside me began to spark and flicker into a commodity that would soon consume me entirely. I became fearful of what was to happen to me, would she completely leave me behind? No, she couldn't, right? After all we did grow up together, our love for each other blossoming as we got older, only to wilt away due to her fading away from me. 

        After some time, I started becoming distant. I became but another extra in her life, however it didn't stop me from loving her. All my chances were all wasted away, down the drain. She would never glance back at me, nor even smile that beautiful smile of hers. Even if I hadn't been around her for a couple months, I couldn't help but notice the quality of her smile decaying into a matter so meaningless, the life in her eyes gradually becoming nothing but a bland bleakness. It hurt me to see her this way, she was at a breaking point. She was gradually growing exhausted of becoming this new individual. 

       She was fragile, about to shatter. It was only a matter of time.

   I watched her change in front of me, Not knowing whether or not it was something she really wanted. Frankly it was her choice, and I had to be more aware of that. A part of me missed her old self, before she changed, that part of me was consumed by greediness and selfishness. I had to be supportive of her decisions, even if it meant dropping me. It was bound to happen, right? It all was a matter of time, until then, I would continue to live on the side lines. It was the only way I could truly show her that I loved her, by accepting and letting her go, it was best for her.