Taste of Sky (EL Girls Series #1)

Chapter 75

Chapter 75

Once a survivor always a fighter. But is it still a fight without him?

I've been called as the woman of hope, but can I still have the name if my own hope is slowly fading away? Born for survival, is it still a survival without him?

I've been trying, helping and reaching thousands of hand but why life can't let me hold his hands? My eyes have been looking for hundreds of beautiful images from pain to hope, sadness to laughter but why life can't let me look at his blue eyes forever? I've been whispering endless words of encouragement but why life can't let my voice reach out through his ears?

Why?

Why life can't give my single happiness?

Why life refused to give him to me?

Bakit kailangang bawiin sa akin ang kasiyahang inakala kong makakasama ko na habang buhay? Bakit sa libo-libong kamay na sinubukan kong hawakan, ang kamay ng lalaking pinakamamahal ko ang mga kamay na hindi ko maaaring hawakan nang mahigpit?

Hindi ba para sa akin si Pedro? Hindi ba ako maaaring bigyan ng kaligayahan kahit sa huling pagkakataon? Habang buhay na lang ba akong magmamahal ngunit paulit-ulit na iiwanan?

I've been a fighter, a fighter for others but I never had an opportunity to win with my own fight. Lagi na lamang akong talo at naiiwang mag-isa.

"Why?! Why?! Why?!" sumisigaw na tanong ko sa buong kalawakan na parang magagawa akong bigyan ng mga ito ng kasagutan.

Tuluyan na akong iniluwa ng eroplano kung saan naiwan ang lalaking mahal ko.

The capsule had a transparent cover letting me see my husband, he's standing near the edge of the control room that can also see the outer space.

Kapwa nakahawak ang aming mga kamay sa salamin habang kapwa nakatitig sa isa't-isa sa bawat paglaki ng aming distansya.

And ss the capsule sent me away and his image getting smaller, my tears can't stop from falling.

"Peter..Peter..baby, I know you can still hear me. I can't do this without you. I can't continue life without you, I am tired. Pagod na pagod na akong masaktan." I slowly caressed the transparent cover where all I can see is the broad space.

The space, the witness of my love and pain.

"H-How can I fight without you? H-How can I wake up without you? H-How can I smile without you? Araw-araw kitang hahanap-hanapin, araw-araw akong masasaktan Peter. I will live miserable. How could you do this to me? You shouldn't have let me fall in love with you! You shouldn't have tried competing with planes Peter! Sana ay hindi ako nasasaktan ng ganito." Lalo nang tumitindi ang pagsakit ng aking lalamunan.

I tried to punch the transparent cover repeatedly.

"Iiwan mo rin pala ako, iiwan mo rin pala ako. I am tired Peter, I am really tired. I am tired baby, bakit lagi nyo akong iniiwan? Bakit? May kulang ba? Tell me! Sabihin mo sa akin kung anong gusto mong gawin ko Peter. Please, don't do this to me."

"Peter! Answer me! Alam kong naririnig mo pa rin ako. Baby please, let me hear your voice. Talk to me." Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang pagmamakaawa na ang nagawa ko kay Pedro.

But I am willing to do this endlessly to keep him with me. Para lamang makasama siya.

"Isama mo na ako, Peter. Isama mo na ako..isama mo na ako." Hindi ko na inabalang punasan ang aking mga luha.

"H-How, how can I be selfish and bring you with me? If this world needs you the most? If my woman was born to save the world. Bakit kita ipagkakait sa mundong yumayakap sa'yo, Behati?" mas lalong humapdi ang aking dibdib nang marinig ko ang nahihirapang boses ni Pedro.