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Today, I cried myself out.

It was the day before I was out meeting my friends. I looked forward to that day, because, finally, I'll be able to see some humans other than my parents. Maybe they'll be able to brighten up my day.

But I was too lazy to get up. So I watched some anime, three episodes and skipped some of the fourth one. And then, a thought just occurred to me.

I miss you.

Fuck myself.

And not that blabber that I said before. I miss you, and I'm not gonna deny it anymore. I missed what we had before and want it all back.

And I cried on how lonely and empty I feel. Not because I left you. Maybe that's what I am from the very start. I don't know where to start on thing loving yourself first, because all I knew is how to love others. And you. Always you.

Come back, please.

I beg you.