Who I really am is not her.

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Hello. Another rant story I wrote for english class. Hope you don't mind. -Jeremiah

Who I am is not her.
Your vision of me is impossible to create in my own head.
You want a girl who wears dresses and make-up. A girl with perfect manners and a polite personality. A girl who is proud and confident of who she is and how she looks. A girl in which she knows the right decision and chooses it.

I must be a very big disappointment, then.

I am a person who hates make-up and dresses. I like to burp and laugh at the wrong times. I come off as rude and impolite most of the time; which makes me hate myself to the point I break down crying. I used to punish myself for the way I look with the blade of a kitchen knife I stole more than a year ago. I slowly realize how wrong my decision was doing that since the scars on my thighs will never go away. Only fade. I try to make good decisions, but sometimes I choose to go with the wrong choice to feel more alive than I am. I am never going to be the girl you want because I AM NOT A GIRL! I've told you time and time again, but you never listen!

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