Insecurities (Edward Pikeman x Insecure!Reader)

She's Changed

(Pikeman's pov)

I'm in the car back to camp, the school year just passed. I've been waiting to see her again! I bet she's as beautiful as she was when I last saw her,  I'm sure she's absolutely gorgeous! The car turns down the dirt road, I see her dads jeep there. its just pulled of to the side, my dad passes the jeep and i see her yelling at the man in the front seat. i then watch her scream one more thing then get out and slam the door walking the rest of the way, she has black running down her cheeks. wait... is she... crying?

I tell my father to pull over to allow me to get out, and he does. but as i get out i can see what shes wearing now. everything she had on was black, the makeup being washed down her pale cheeks is grey, her body was covered by a large hoodie, her legs had ripped jeans on them, and her shoes were black high top converse. After staring for a bit I bolted towards her.

Her head was picked up from a down position and she dropped her bag, the duffel bag looked full. she sprinted at me and jumped into my arms, her body shaking and jolting as she started to sob. There was one thing i hated more than max, and that was to see Y/N cry. She looked different though, she felt lighter and like she was in absolute pain.

(Y/N's Pov)

I'd been crying the whole way to camp, my dad yelled at me the whole way there. It had been like this the whole school year, I didn't want to be with dad but after an incident with my mother i had no choice. All that's been going on since I moved in with dad was constant yelling. he did nothing but scream at me, ever since i moved in. 

Ive begged him to stop, but he wouldn't. I'm moving out at 15 and getting a house somewhere this summer. I hated crying, my makeup got everywhere and i felt terrible. 

Soon I screamed at my father to pull over, he did and i got out the tears running down my cheeks faster than i thought they would. i started walking, then i watched the car that passed us pull over. watching familiar red hair get out of the car, i lifted my head seeing him turn around. He stared at me and i stopped moving seeing who the male was, my body tightened up and i dropped my bag. I stared at Pike like i seriously needed him, watching as he sprinted at me. My eyes filled more with tears and i ran into his arms, he was so warm and comforting.

My emotions spilled out onto his shirt as i stood there in his arms, a broken mess. He held me close to him, pressing my body into his. I could feel him reach down and pick me up, standing there. Holding me against himself he walked to my duffel bag and picked it up,  he started walking to camp, or so i thought. he opened a door, a car door and set the bag inside and sat with me inside the vehicle. The car started up and who ever was driving kept driving to the camp.

(Time skip)

(Pikeman's pov)

Dad dropped her and I off, i walked her to the bunk her and i would share. i didn't want her alone this summer, i don't know what was going on and i was going to help her through this as fast as I possibly could. I set down her bag, she had a hold on my free arm and i wanted her to stay as close as she so could. we sat on the floor and she layed against me, i didnt want to upset her more so i left her alone and let her sleep. she dozed off pretty quickly, her body felt heavier as she fell deeper into the dream world.

Later we were woken by Snake, who was already dressed in uniform. 

"Its dinner sir," he said softly then rushed off. 

I shook her awake and smiled down at her, "Its dinner. You hungry?" she shook her head and picked herself up off the floor and climbed into bed. I laid behind her pressing my nose into her head, hugging her close. truth be told i wasn't very hungry either, i didn't want her left alone. I kissed the back of her head, pulling the covers over myself i fell asleep. 

(Y/N's Pov)

I opened my eyes feeling pikeman lay behind me, i cuddled up to him, he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer letting himself under the covers. it warmed up pretty fast, the both of us laying there in the comfortable bed.

(time skip to next morning) 

(Y/n's pov)

I woke up without my hoodie on, my jeans somehow became pajama shorts, and my socks were gone. but something else was missing, it felt cold behind me, he left. i got up and looked at his side of the bed, a small note was there. i picked it up and read it, "Hey! sorry for undressing you, i wanted to make you comfortable. Hey, also can i talk to you later? its about your arm and leg."

I stayed in the room for a few more hours before leaving, my eyes decorated by black makeup, her hoodie on, the pants provided to me covered the cuts on my legs. I was hugged from behind by someone as i walked, she stopped dead in my tracks. I looked up at the being hugging me, the very person hugging me had red hair. He held me close to him, it was pikeman. i smiled then leaned into him, this was the first time in a while that ive actually been happy all year.

(Pikemans pov)

I held onto her, i felt horrible that what ever was going on at home caused her to harm her beautiful body. i placed my hands on her shoulders and spun her around, feeling her avoid eye contact by hugging me was sweet. I held her close to me, rubbing her back to comfort her. i pressed my lips into her head, kissing the top of her head. 

She jumped and looked up at me, looking me in the eyes. i got close to her ear, "Tonight i want to talk to you about your arm and leg okay?" her ear turned red and i could tell she had started to blush, her hands grabbed hold of my shirt. i stood there holding onto her. enjoying her embrace and warm face.  Shes so beautiful.

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Hey thank you guys for reading this if you did, i will hopefully be posting again soon. on this book too, im sorry for trying to end this so early!  I needed this vent, I enjoy writing. but pre-warning i will be posting more in my conversation page, just to tell you how things are going and if i have art block or not. 

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