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Chapter 18: I hate u I love u

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I slowly turned around and there he was in all his handsome glory, holding a bouquet of roses

I was confused, like what?? Was this part of the "it's fake"plan?

I took the beautiful roses from his hands slowly

"What are these for?"

He took a deep breath

"Renae- I-I want this to be real, I like you so much, more than you can imagine, you are so beautiful, I want to take you out I want-"

Before he could finish I put my finger on his lip

"Dont......please"

I quickly ran to the car before anyone could see me

I had tears in the corners of my eyes

He had the most hurt impression on his face, it pained me actually

But what he's doing to me is hurting me more

How dare he stare up in my face and straight up lie?

He doesn't really like me, he just wants to use me like he did Maybelle, Kelly, and whoever else I've never heard about

I know my heart wants him....I want him....but I won't allow myself to believe crap like that anymore

I'm done getting my heart broken, I'm done with all these men using and breaking me

I will not go through another Adam again

Yes he seems different but I've seen his actions to other females

He really thought I would fall so easy

So everything he did, said... was all fake, just for me to become one of his whores

I'm not even worth it I'm an ugly black girl, why would anyone in the fact really like me?

Before I knew it tears were endlessly falling from my eyes and I was stomping on the roses Liam gave me

See he didn't even come back, he doesn't even care

No one did

I didn't know what was wrong with me, I didn't think, all I did was take off my heels and run

I saw Liam approaching me, I took a look at him, this might be the last time I would see him

I just ran, I don't know where I was going, I just needed to get away

Away from him

Liam's Pov

"Dont.....please" She put her finger on my lip

And then she ran

I couldn't move, I couldn't think right

I like her so damn much

I thought she might have had liked me, but I guess I'm not good enough

I felt like running to her holding her deep in my arms, finishing what I wanted to say

But I can't

I already scared her, going to her might take her away from me for ever

I don't think I can bare that

No more seeing her beautiful face, no more hearing her laugh, no more touch....

I felt tears prick my eyes

What is wrong with me

I never cry over a girl

Never

Why do I feel this way towards her? Why do I think she is the only woman I want?

I'm so attracted to her it's like....

I dare not say that word I don't even know what it is

Instead of moping around, I should go find her

I found her ouside, she was crying and taking her heels off

I walked towards her, she glanced at me, makeup smeared all on her face

And ran

My heart clenched

It felt like I've been given a punch in my stomach

She must really really hate me, to just run away from me like that

Tears started slowly rolling I rubbed my face in anger

She can't do this to me!

It's not fair

You know what? I don't even need her, f*ck her!

I started to kick my car repeatedly and it started to beep

That's when I felt a pair of hands around my waist

I turned around, secretly hoping it was Renae

It was my mom

I suddenly got angry and slightly pushed her away

She didn't flinch

"Liam, baby, you need to stop"

"Mom you don't f*cking understand, I'm not good enough, she doesn't want me she-"

I started breaking down

I slid down my car to the ground

My mom put her arms around me any let me cry in her lap

She ran her hands through my hair, like she did when I was younger

I miss those times

"Baby, she does like you I can tell, I'm a woman....she-she might be going through some stuff, so maybe she wasn't prepared for your confession"

I sat up and looked at her shocked

She ignored me and continued

"Yes I knew you were faking, Liam I'm your mother, you thought I wouldn't know?"

She was right about that

"Anyway, how about you sleepover tonight, it's late and we can catch up on things, then we can talk about your feelings when your ready"

I nodded, standing up then I remembered

"Mom she's out there all by herself, what-what if something happens?"

She looked at me and put a hand on my shoulder

"Liam, she's okay, trust me, now let's go"

I hesitated then obliged I trusted her

Guys....I almost cried writing this, what did you guys think?😭😭