I twist and turn on the floor which is my new bed. This is not going well.
I can't help but remember what Nova said about strength. Does that mean I am weak?
This is so frustrating.
Why are you letting her get to you?
I can hear Zian asking.
I DON'T KNOW.
I shout at her in my mind.
She leaves me alone after that. I have been so frustrated these days. Even Lexi doesn't approach me when I am alone.
I had programmed her to not respond when I am moody. Which nowadays, I always am. The indecision is killing me.
My line of thoughts is interrupted by a whimper- Zarine's whimper.
I darkly note that he is still lying on the bed despite my threats. That kid might be too cheeky for his own good. He has a way with me. I see myself give in more and more when it comes to him. And it's not even consciously.
He whimpers again. Is he awake?
I shut my eyes the moment I see him throw the sheets and getting up. I can hear his little feet thumping on the hardwood floor as he makes his way to the bathroom.
I can hear him sniff as he gets the water running. Is he crying? I can feel Zian grow restless in me at the thought.
I have to summon up a lot of strength to prevent her from going after him. I lay waiting for him. I hear the sniff again. He is definitely crying. What do I do? I am definitely not good with such things. Maybe if I were like the chipmunk, I could help him.
At the moment, I am clueless as to dealing with him.
I really need to help him though. I need to find out what his past is. I really can't get around it. Because his sadness is for some reason bothering me too.
I shut my eyes again as his footsteps thump back to the room. He pauses for a moment and as I am laying on my side with my back to him, I can't even peep and see what's going on.
He stays like that for a while. And before I could reckon what is happening, he climbs into the sheets with me.
I give him the bed and he chooses to lay on the floor? What a strange kid!
His hand comes around my stomach. And his head rests against my hair. He takes in a deep breath and seems to calm down. My scent calms him?
My eyes widen as I realize that I am not only letting this kid touch me, I am also allowing him to lay down with me. When did I become so generous? At this rate, he would have me wrapped around his pinkie in no time.
I have to admit that finding out he is a boy has made him more adorable for me.
I calm my breathing down, lest he guesses I am awake. Which would put us both in an embarrassing situation.
Besides, I think I am enjoying this. Its been so long since I have felt a fellow werewolf's touch. And he is not someone to bad, to begin with.
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The next day I find myself waking early to get on with the training. I am not a coward, and I certainly not weak. What better way to prove that than beating up Blaze. I can feel my blood boiling in excitement with that thought.
Its been a while since I really caused trouble for Blaze. A girl's got to keep the destructive mate bond going.
I slowly get up and wrap Zarine up in my bed sheets. He finds the pillow I give him a good replacement. Probably because of my scent on it.
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Finding myself
WerewolfIIHighest rank no: 3II What are the repercussions of a rejection? 1. Getting numb 2. Failing to care about anyone else and 3. Genocide(yes just kill off everyone and get it done with.) At least to me, these are the solutions and they are absolute...