5 Years Later • (Lauren/You)

Part 10

"Ready for bed?" Noah says as we enter our apartment

"No, I think I'm gonna stay up for a second" I say

"Are you sure?" He says

"Yeah I'm sure, I'm just gonna try and figure out this script" I say kissing him of the cheek

"Goodnight" he smiles

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Y/n Y/Ln: So, I'm trying to write up some notes and I have a question, what exactly are you feeling after the break up?

Y/n Y/Ln: ??

Lauren Anonymous: what do you want

Y/n Y/Ln: ^ the answer

Y/n Y/Ln: Did I say something to offend you?

Lauren Anonymous: it's a feeling of worthlessness that I can't seem to escape. The bitch left with no reason besides fear

Y/n Y/Ln: I know the feeling

Lauren Anonymous: and I don't feel like talking rn

Y/n Y/Ln: Are you okay?

Lauren Anonymous: im fine, and I doubt that you know the feeling

Y/n Y/Ln: A few years I was in a relationship, a serious relationship and I ended it because of that same feeling

Lauren Anonymous: what do you mean?

Y/n Y/Ln: I haven't had the best track record with relationships. A while ago I was dating someone and every moment of that relationship felt like work

Lauren Anonymous: but how does this relate to my feeling??

Y/n Y/Ln: Then one day I hit them with my car

Lauren Anonymous: 🙄

Y/n Y/Ln: It was an accident but watching them suffer everyday because of a stupid thing I did killed me

Lauren Anonymous: still not seeing how this relates to me

Y/n Y/Ln: He broke up with me because he thought I would hit him again, bitch left because of fear

Lauren Anonymous: I would too

Y/n Y/Ln: 😂 Did that make you feel better?

Lauren Anonymous: sure, are we done here?

Y/n Y/Ln: No but seriously, I didn't have the typical upbringing. When I was younger I had the best parents. They were so in love and it made me excited about finding what they had

Lauren Anonymous: then?

Y/n Y/Ln: Then my mom got sick, the medical bills started piling up, we weren't rich so my dad started working two jobs. Then he started drinking and became abusive

Lauren Anonymous: abusive to you?

Y/n Y/Ln: Yeah, I've got the scars to prove it. He eventually left though

Lauren Anonymous: but you have two parents

Y/n Y/Ln: How do you know that?

Lauren Anonymous: your file says it

Y/n Y/Ln: They're not my real parents, not biologically

Lauren Anonymous: you were adopted? what happened?

Y/n Y/Ln: Mom died, dad might as well have died, and I got placed in the system

Lauren Anonymous: like a group home?

Y/n Y/Ln: Yep, up until my Aunt picked me up and adopted me. They saved me

Lauren Anonymous: im sorry Y/n, I didn't know

Y/n Y/Ln: How would you? We've never even met lol I've actually never told anybody that

Lauren Anonymous: no one?

Y/n Y/Ln: You would be the first

Lauren Anonymous: why keep a secret like this

Y/n Y/Ln: I don't know

Lauren Anonymous: have you seen your dad since?

Y/n Y/Ln: Nope

Y/n Y/Ln: Well actually a few years ago

Lauren Anonymous: a few years ago what?

Y/n Y/Ln: I'm sorry I have to go, I just remembered something really important