13 Guys, 2 Girls | Seventeen × You

Chapter 11

『..., 』

When I got into my room, the view I aways see was spread in front of my eyes. I have a room to myself so, even all the furniture... are put the way I want it.

......If I'm in this room I thought I'd be able to calm down.

『...No, ..., I do, n't want this...』

The pink curtains, the sky blue bed, the carpet, the stuffed bunny..., all make me feel sick...

Maybe there's trap in here somewhere. Maybe this room is being watched... Oppa's might have seen this room and thought it was gross, there might be a listening device in here, at night, someone might strangle me... The noise won't stop, the laughing voices of people making fun of me, the abuse, ...won't stop.

『, 』

When I pull the curtains, it makes a noise as it comes off the metal. The cute pink fabric covered me. I throw over, and feeling that my heart is being noisy... I take it out on the stuff inside my room. I take the sheets off my bed, I drop the pen holder that was on my desk onto the floor... I'm scared, everything should just break, ...and disappear, 

If I make this room empty, all my memories with the Oppa's... should disappear with it too. But even if I try to erase the Oppa's from my heart, they won't go away.

『, *pant, ...*pant, 』

Then I should forget about myself from back then, instead of the Oppa's. If I get rid of myself, I'll be free. I can hate on the Oppa's that apologize to me.

『Ha...ha, ha, 』

I'll force myself to laugh. I'll force myself to dance. I'll force myself to sing. I'll force myself to make a fake me. If I force myself I'll probably be freed. Because, everything should come back to me in return.

....What are you hoping for? Didn't, you throw everything away?

In the messy room...in front of me, there is a dark version of me. Me, with the face of a devil.

That's right, I... just went back.

I just went back, to when I was a trainee.

👶「Y/N, ...? Woa, what happened, 」

『..., 』

👶「Y/N, 」

『I have a favour to ask you, 』

"I want you to throw out, everything in here, "

👶「Wha, 『I want to reset. Everything. 』...Y/N, 」

『If I don't, ..I feel like I'm going to break, 』

👶「, ...It's okay, it's all okay」

『It's not okay..., I have to, get ride of myself, ...』

👶「No you can't, take a deep breath.」

『I, ...』

👶「Y/N」

『Throw it out, ...Please..., Pl, ea..se, ...Hansol-ah...Let me, free..., 』

👶「Will that, ...free you?」

『Yes, 』

👶「...Okay. I'll go get Chanie and Seungkwan-ah」

『...Thank you, 』

👶「...Look at my eyes, Y/N.」

Hansol-ah puts a hand on my head, as I nodded. When I slowly met his eyes, his beautiful pure eyes almost suck me up.