P S Y C H O •zuckles•

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A/n- I am sick! So I'm going to be making hella chapters idk if I will post them but definitely expect new chapters everyday from both this book and swagger souls book.
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I felt something heavy on my body.

Opening my eyes I see the sun slowly creeping up over the horizon from my window. Looking down I see someone under my sheets and on top of my body.

Cameron said he was going to be sleeping in here.

Feeling my face get hot I lift the covers and see none other than Mason.

Screaming I push him off of me and on to the floor.

"What the fuck, cunt!?" He groaned in pain as Cameron busted down the door "I TOLD YOU NOT TO FUCK HER" Cam had on boxers and a shirt "What is all the yelling about?" Eric rubs his eyes and yawns seeing he's completely naked making me scream again.

"Swagger put pants on, Mason get out of her room" he dragged mason out and pushed Eric in the room he was staying in. Cam walks in and sits on my bed and I sit with my legs crossed. "You alright? I know that was probably the most trippy morning you've ever had." We both laugh and once it died down I play with my fingers awkwardly. "Have you been taking your medicine?" When he asked that I sighed.

I hate taking my medicine. It's a constant reminder that I'm fucked in the head and I need something to fix it since I can't fix myself.

"No.." I could feel his eyes staring at me as I look down at my hands "please take them? They do help." He rubs my arm and stands up. "I heard Toby is making breakfast and he's really good so don't take too long or else all the food will be gone" I laugh when he left and closed the door.

I got up looking through my bag and seeing my pills.

Biting the inside of my cheek I open the bottle and take out 2 and a half pills and throw them into my mouth and swallow. I then go to my closet and pick out leggings and one of fitz merch hoodies I found online.

Going downstairs everyone was bickering at each other.

"Hey!" I shout and they look at me "shut the fuck up and eat. Jesus." I say sitting down and grabbing my plate of food and everyone starts to eat as well.

Mason handed me more eggs but I declined feeling full already. "You barely ate. Come on eat some more" he says and I just comply and eat more.

They were all getting ready to head to the convention. Cameron was making me go to this one since I needed some sunlight. All I did was kept what I was wearing on and applied mascara.

Gross.

I sighed and put my mascara in the vanity drawer.

"You look pretty nice" I look behind me and see Mason. "Oh. Thanks" I give him a fake smile in return and he furrows his eyebrows. "Why don't you believe me?" He walks over and sits down on my bed. "What? I didn't say I didn't believe you" - "you gave me a fake smile. I know what they look like I give them to people all the time" my eyes go wide and my cheeks flushed with a tint of red.

I turn back to my mirror and start brushing my hair.

We stayed in silence until I was finished. When I got up he did aw well. "We should probably go gather the cunts up" I giggle at him and nod in agreement.

We got an Uber to the convention seeing a line of people at the front we got dropped off in the back entrance.

Once we walked in we had to go through security and get our badges. Since I wasn't a creator Cameron bought me a visitor pass. For some reason I stuck by Mason this entire day watching all of them greet their fans and take pictures, receiving gifts.

Someone tried to give Swagger weed but got busted and got arrested which was pretty eventful. Swagger followed them on twitter and Instagram.

I felt my anxiety soon kick in once I seen all the people that were in this building. I kept sitting in my chair but I starting to scratch my wrist.

It's a terrible habit that I picked up when I was younger thinking it's a stress reliever. I know it's not good but I can't really help it.

I soon felt an arm wrap around my shoulders seeing Mason with a goofy grin on his face. "You alright?" He asked "yeah these aren't really my thing" I let out a shakey breathe and he hugs me "got one more hour let's do this!" He smiles and I smile back but it was genuine.

Once it was done everyone wanted to go partying except Cameron and Toby including me since they were exhausted. Ryan and Sam told them no since they also have shit to do tomorrow.

We all parted ways and went back to Cameron's apartment. Matt immediately slams on the couch and passes out. Mason goes into the bathroom and closes the door. While the rest of us just part ways into our own rooms. I told Cameron I wanted to be by myself and he accepted that since I was in an environment I wasn't normally comfortable with.

Laying down on my bed I scroll through my phone seeing everything that had happen on Instagram throughout the day.

I got distracted when I heard sniffling. I got up and walked out seeing almost everyone in bed until I reached the bathroom door. I knocked on the door and I heard someone quickly shuffle around "hold on cunt" it was Mason inside of there. When he opened the door he looked like he had been crying.

"What's the matter?" I asked "nothing. Go away" he went to close the door and I stop it with my hand feeling pain surge up my arm. "You cunt why would you do that!?" He whisper yells at me pulling me in the bathroom. I tried to act like it was fine but it hurt like a bitch.

He closed the door and sat me on the toilet.

He sighs in frustration looking through Cameron's cabinets. He finds a wrap and some Motrin for the pain. Grabbing a tiny ass Dixie cup he pours me some water handing me the pills and cup. I just take the pills with out the water and he looks at me like I'm a wild animal.

"Weird flex but okay" he said while wrapping my hand up. I giggle a bit and stare down at him as he wraps it "you're a big softy you know?" I say and he scoffs "don't tell the boys I'd never hear the end of it" he finishes wrapping up and stand up. "Why were you crying?" I asked and he looks away "I wasn't" I could tell he was lying through his teeth.

I heard him sniffling and he looks either high as fuck or just got his heart broken.

I stand up and look up at him "what's wrong?" Once I asked that he broke. "Everything is fucked I can't do anything right" he leans his head on my shoulder and I hug him burrowing my head in his chest. "That's not true..." - "it is my girlfriend and I broke up cause I cheated on her after getting shitfaced and I really wanted a future with her but I fucked it up. I hurt her" he whimpered as his skinny arms wrapped around my body hugging me tightly.

I rubbed his back in reassurance.

He didn't deserve this. He can be a dick head but he has a soft heart. "Mason you can better yourself and find someone else. I know you can" I say feeling his tears and snot pool on my shoulder. I didn't care but it was definitely gross to think about.

"I don't want you to hate me" - "Mason why would I hate you?" I feel him pull back and I do as well looking up at him. It broke me to see him so upset. "You're so nice and you deserve the best. Cameron talks so much about you in discord for the past year or so and yet he doesn't even like you." When mason said that I felt my heart shatter. At that moment I wanted to cry but I couldn't I had to be there for Mason. "You are the sweetest person yet you keep getting fucked over by life. I just want you to like me" He says sniffling and I hand him toilet paper.

"I do like you Mason" I smile at him and he looked like he was going to say something but stopped himself "okay." Was all he said before blowing his nose. "Let's go to bed. Okay?" I say and he nods. We head into my bedroom and I went to my closet to change my shirt. I turned to look at him on my bed looking at me "turn around?" I asked and he nodded apologizing before slamming his face in a pillow.

I lifted my gross shirt over my body and placed a new one on.

I go to my bed and push Mason over and he gives me space to sleep. He he had on his shirt, socks, and in joggers. I crawl under the blankets and he stayed on top leaving us some spacial reasoning.

"Night Phoenix"

"Night Mason"