P S Y C H O •zuckles•

.7

I woke up feeling cold and damp hearing my phone buzz. I open my eyes seeing we were still outside, I was laying on top of Mason who was passed out and had his arms wrapped around my body. I can't imagine how cold Mason might be. Then again I was laying on him like a blanket.

I looked at my phone seeing 36 missed calls from Cameron and 113 texts from him.

Shaking Mason awake I called Cameron back.

"Where are you guys?!" He basically screams over the phone and Mason slowly wakes up. "Sorry we went out on an adventure last night and accidentally fell asleep in the woods so I can't really tell you where we are" I get up and looked around my surroundings. "Oh my fu... can you guys get home?" Cameron sounded frustrated. I looked at Mason who was still half asleep. "Yeah I think so" I sighed helping up Mason from the ground. "I'll call you back my phone is about to die and I need it"

We said our goodbyes and I hung up.

I got Masons phone from the grass and seen it was dead. "Here give me your phone and I'll get an Uber to take us back. Don't worry. All we need to worry about is Cameron pestering us when we get back." He takes my phone and calls an Uber. We made our way back to the side of the road where the Uber was waiting and we got in as the driver begun driving back to Cameron's apartment.

We both stood in front of the door hesitant of opening it. Mason gathered the courage to open the door to reveal everyone with concerned faces and Cameron with a very pissed look.

"Where the hell were you guys?" Cameron yelled "I told you passed out in the woods almost like camping" I said slipping my shoes off "do you have any idea what I was thinking when I seen you gone along with Mason this morning? I thought he took you to some party got you fucked and you were hurt!" His body language shouted that he was angry but his eyes were filled with concern.

"Really? You think I'm that fucked up of a person to allow her to get hurt?" Mason scoffs "Jesus Mason you'd fuck anything with tits and a pussy last thing I need is for you to fuck her up anymore" Cameron snaps back. In all honesty that not only hurt mason but it hurt me as well. "Well damn Cam didn't know you felt that way. I'll leave then" he turns around and leaves the apartment.

The room went silent "I didn't mean to say that..." Cameron huffs and runs his fingers through his hair. I went to go to my room but Cameron stops me by grabbing my hand. My heart was beating fast and I couldn't think. I was so mad but yet something was holding me back. "You're not mad at me too are you?" He looks at me and all I could do was yank my hand back before heading inside my room and closing the door locking it behind me.

I sit on my floor, my back against the door.

Does Cameron think I'm that fucked up? I hugged my knees and sighed. Is that why he'd never would want to be with me? Cause I'm fucked up? Broken? Scarred? I felt a tear slip and fall onto my hand. I was still wearing Masons hoodie, it was a little dirty but none the less still comfortable and smelled like him.

Do all the guys know that I'm fucked in the head? Did Cameron tell all of them? No he wouldn't do that... he promised me he'd keep it all a secret. I got up and walked into my bathroom looking at myself in the mirror.

For some reason I hated how I looked more right now then I ever have in my life. I started to cry looking at my reflection.

Why did I have to be this way? Why can't I just be happy? Why did you have to leave us that night... why did you have to take that phone call?

I hate you.. you left me here...

I crouched on the ground of the cold tile grabbing a handful of hair into my hands and gripping it trying to not make a sound. I didn't want to let the guys know I was crying. I heard my phone buzz, grabbing it I could barely see the screen from my tears blurring my vision. I wipes my eyes seeing it was from Mason.

Hey... Ik Cams kinda mad at me rn but do you want to escape? To just breathe and relax? Just us?

I smiled replying with yes.

I quietly went to my closet and grabbed my bag shoving clothes inside and putting my brush, toothbrush, deodorant, perfume, and some girl needs just incase.

I looked at my phone again and he texted that he was here with an Uber.

Leaving a note for Cameron, I looked out on the balcony and seeing if I had a way of getting down. The only way was balcony hopping. He was on the fifth floor so this will be difficult. Mason was at the ground looking up at me. I started to hop down balcony to balcony. I got to the last one but the jump would be to high for me.

"Jump" I look down at Mason who had his arms out and I hesitated "trust me Phoenix" he smiled a bit, his eyes tinted red from crying. But mine were like that as well. I jumped and he caught me before I could hit the ground. He held my hand and took me towards the Uber.

We both got in and got our luggage onto the floor.

The driver started driving away from the apartment and I felt just as excited as I was last night. I look over at Mason who was looking out the window. We were still holding hand and I didn't want it to end.

He makes me smile when I want to cry and give up.

I hope I made the right decision.