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54. business

54.

JAE'S POV
(translated)

My mind has been on overdrive for the last few days.

I took a mental day after my talk with Auntie to get my thoughts and my emotions together. It didn't help that I was highly hormonal and suffering from cramps then, but that was the least of my worries.

I started off that day with a cheeky Jungkook texting me, but unfortunately he has been so busy that I haven't gotten the chance to text him much since.

Given that Auntie's appointment isn't until the 26th, I have been sulking in my room with a heavy heart and twenty minutes worth of edited vlog footage done. I posted two new vlogs over the span of four days— many hours of editing contributed to making that happen.

I have been deep in my thoughts trying to map out a sensible career path for myself— one that will manipulate my power into something with meaning. I know I can figure something out. I've come this far, haven't I?

Presently, David has finally confirmed that he will be getting on the flight. I don't know what happened, but I received this text only a few minutes ago:

David: I'll be on the flight
You have WiFi right?

You: 🙄🙄🙄
yes.
Auntie has a doc appt when you land so imma send a car

David: wooooow
Prioritizing her over me smh

You: are you blind?
are you 85 years old?

David: I was kidding
can u send someone into the airport with a sign with my name on it

You: omfg

David: 😬😬😬

I'm about to say no, but then it occurs to me that my brother has been miserable at home for the last two months without me, and now he will be visiting the land of depression here at the hanok. Maybe this will bring a smile to his face.

You: ok

David: thanks sissypoo

You: 🤢

I roll my eyes at my phone. David is finding too much enjoyment out of my online success.

I am honestly in over my head. The analytics of all my social media accounts are insane. Over 3 million people visited my Instagram page in the last week, and I've gained 200,000 more subscribers on my YouTube since the last time I checked. Famous YouTubers that I used to watch are emailing me to ask for collaborations, but I have to somehow not sound suspicious when I say I won't be available until after August 31st— the end of the contract.

Speaking of which, today has really set precedent for how overwhelming life is somehow becoming. I woke up to a phone heavy with replies and messages from people whom I cannot ignore.

At this point I don't even want to open my Gmail application. It's scary on there. I don't know what brands to do what with because I have too many engagements on my profiles. I don't know how much I'm worth anymore.

Most intimidatingly enough, when I do decide to check my email, they have reached out to me:

____________

Kang Jae,

In regard to future plans, please let us know if you are available for a meeting: