Friends With Benefits (BoyxBoy)

Ch.13 Tears of Frustration

Justin's POV

Yesterday was amazing

Me and Derek took our relationship to the next level and now we are finally dating

He stayed for a while after I told him yes but then I made him leave because my mom called saying she was on her way home

Since she didn't want me to be a stripper she obviously doesn't want to find out that I had unprotected sex with someone she'd never met before

Also the fact that I had sex with a guy might have made it worse

I was at school talking to Ben at lunch trying to find a way to casually say we can't be friends with benefits anymore

Since I'm actually in a relationship now I'd feel guilty doing anything sexual with other people

"So. What did you want to talk about?"

"Ben maybe we should stop, you know... Messing around"

"What are you talking about?"

"We should be just friends and friends only"

"What?! Why?"

"I don't like sneaking around. I'd prefer us being best friends again and forgetting all about what happened before"

"I can't. I've been hiding my feelings for you for years and I only settled for this so I could still have you. I'm not going to forget about it"

"Please just do it. It makes this a lot easier"

"I told you. I can't. I still have feelings for you. I thought they were mutual"

"They are. I love you Ben, but I can't be with you. This is hard enough as is, please just do this. For me"

"No. I'm not losing you again!" people turned and were looking at us but I didn't care

"You're not going to lose me. I still want us to be friends"

"But I don't want to be just friends! I don't want to lose all the progress I made trying to get you"

"Please Ben. It's either this or nothing"

"I rather take nothing than go through the torture of wanting you and never having you all over again!"

"Is this guy bothering you?" Derek showed up. Great. This makes things much easier *rolls eyes*

"No. It's fine" Derek pulled me into a breath taking kiss in front of everyone catching me by surprise

I heard a door slam and broke the kiss to see Ben was gone

Derek was radiating with jealousy

And everyone was quiet and was staring at me and Derek

"What the hell!" I yelled at him and ran out of school

I ran and ran until I was in a completely different area that I don't even recognize

I was at grassy opening by a river under a bridge

On normal at circumstances I'd look at the beautiful blue sky and enjoy the beauty of nature and stare at the amazing scenery

What I did instead was fall down on the grass, curl up into a ball and cry until I was drowned in my own tears

I lost my best and only true friend I'd ever had and now my idiotic boyfriend pretty much outed me in front of my whole school

God I'm a mess. I seriously need help

After an hour of crying on the grass I was empty of tears

I just laid on the grass and thought

I'm bored. I need to call someone to pick me up

Where the hell am I anyway?!

Fuuuuuck!!! I'm lost!

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Me: I'll save you sweetie! *Comes running up to Justin*

Justin: Your the weirdo that got in my house yesterday. Somebody help me!

*runs away*

Me: All I want is your love! *pursues a chase*

~Love T (*^･ｪ･)ﾉ