5 Minutes a Day 》 KTH ✓ (Book One)

*special* Only one

June 18, 20XX
Thursday

I don't know what love is.

How could I?

For 7 years, I watched my mom lie and cheat on my dad.

It ruined him.

Because of it, he told me that I shouldn't trust so easily.

"It's better to break hearts than get yours broken...

If you play the game right, you will never put yourself in that position in the first place.

Test people to their limits, because only true love will be able to handle it. "

He told me all this as I watched him lose himself to the alcohol.

My mother wasn't even phased.

She acted on like nothing happened, smiling with all her friends.

Acting like we still were the perfect family.

The only good thing about her was the light she introduced me to---Jungkook.

Jungkook was always there for me.

The best part was that he never asked me about the problems I had at home.

Instead, he took care of me in efforts to wash them away.

He was the prince from all the childhood books I read.

Knowing of my loneliness, he even introduced me to all his friends.

"This is our princess, let's take care of her!" He exclaimed.

Just like that, I suddenly earned 4 more princes (1 later in high school).

Although, my eyes remained on one prince only.

But I couldn't allow it.

Because the possibility of loving someone more than they love you... was frightening.

But I also had more on the line than just my heart.

I could lose everybody...

Because Jungkook was the center that held everyone together.

So I went with a safer choice: Taehyung.

He liked me more than I liked him.

Just like you said, papa.

I couldn't get hurt.

But then Jungkook confessed and I found myself giving in to his sweet kisses.

That was the moment I realized that I had become my mother.

Shaking, I was afraid Taehyung's fate would parallel my fathers if I told him about Jungkook and I.

So we kept it a secret.

We decided it was best you passed away happy and not in sorrow.

It was wrong and twisted.

Eventually, you found out and all hell broke loose.

His friendship with Jungkook was damaged, and it was all my fault.

I felt terrible.

Even more so that he took out most of his anger on Jungkook and not me.

"It's okay," Jungkook smiles sadly. "Let him take it out on me. Him being close to you is enough for me."

I hated it, yet I did nothing.

Doing as Jungkook wished, I just supported Taehyung.

However, he started talking about a girl and I couldn't support him anymore.

I was scared he would end up hurt all over again.

But, I also feared for her heart.

"It isn't right!" I argued with Taehyung.

He stops wiping the table, but remains focused on it.

"Taehyung, it's not right. If something happens to you...it's not fair to her."

He curls his fingers tightly around the washcloth before standing and whipping it harshly at the laundry bin.

He walks away from me, running his fingers through his hair.

"You're right."

Relaxed, I thought it I had knocked some sense into him.

So imagine my surprise when I caught him making a move on her on the bus.

But it wasn't just the heart of his she took, she started taking the others' as well.

They liked her.

I grew jealous, wanting to be the only girl used to their attention and care.

So I did things to test her, hoping she would run away.

It was only if she passed them all that I would trust her.

Anyone that fails was no good for the people I cared about.

I wouldn't surrender them to someone that falters.

I pick up my phone and swipe over Jennie name in the contacts.

I'm sorry I'm like this.

I click on another name on my contact list.

I'm sorry, Jennie.

I can't surrender the boys just yet.

I watch my message send and take a deep breath.

⇦ Jennie has been meeting Jungkook outside of the project. He confessed that they kissed. Be careful who you fall for, Taehyung.

But true love is supposed to overcome all this, right?