3rd POV:
Jimin was hiccupping at the end of the story, ending it exactly till the moment, where five years ago he buried a part of soul here.
He really thought he would die if his brother ever left him and yet there he was... alive and well even after five years of living without him.
How selfish is the human mind, not willing to let go of our physical existence rather choosing to torture us with haunting memories of the departed ones?
"He loved you too much Jungkook, he loved you to an extent where he even got angry over me for not defending you. For not believing that you will come back, but you did. You held your end of your promise, but fate didn't let him hold his...", Jimin said wiping his tears with the soft fabric of his sweater.
He had started to shiver a bit as the cold breeze passed by him; the pain resurfacing from his wounds was making him dizzy now.
He wanted to get over with tonight and let the sleep embrace his drooping eyes.
Jungkook was sitting there with his head hanging low listening intensely to the stories of his dead lover, picturing him in his mind.
He would have been thankful to Jimin if it was another time, another situation but right now he couldn't help but doubt the sincerity of the latter.
"Why now?" he questioned lifting his head meeting Jimin's teary gaze.
"Why after all this time you chose to tell me now when you could have told me the truth at the beginning. Why did you have to lie and deceive me instead of coming clean? Or did you think that I was so much of an idiot that you will be able to deceive me easily and silently take over your brother's spot? It was going pretty smooth I suppose, but your guilty conscious ruined all your manipulative games for you, ain't I right Jimin-shi?", Jungkook said coldly scanning Jimin's shivering body up and down.
He saw a glimpse of regret and sadness flash in Jimin's eyes, but he wasn't going to let himself be fooled by him anymore.
"I never wanted to", he mumbled in a low voice with his head hanging low, "but when all of a sudden I found you standing in front of me, your eyes begging me to be Jihan, I couldn't help but lie to you Jungkook, but our time together was never a lie for me. I wanted to tell you everything but at the same time, I didn't want to lose that loving gaze of yours who I knew will turn into hatred once you will get to know who I really was? You always blame me for lying to you when it was your fault, to begin with. All I wanted was a little love and attention from you and all I ever got was hatred and rejection. What did I ever do to you Jungkook for hating me so much? You bullied me all my childhood; you made my life hell by throwing me in front of all those hungry bullies. You made me hurt my own best friend, you turned me into this...", Jimin said pointing towards his bruised and trembling body.
"You destroyed me Jeon Jungkook when all I ever did was to love you", Jimin ended his outburst with his shoulders shaking visibly.
Jungkook clenched his fists in frustration feeling a burst of mixed emotions, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to feel anything at this point.
"Love?", Jungkook said in a mocking way looking down at the smaller male.
"You can't love Jimin, all you are is a vulture feeding on other people's happiness, thirsty for attention. The best you can do to others is to free them from your miserable existence or else they will end up dead in a grave, just like your brother", Jungkook's words were like a venom seeping into Jimin's mind.
"Good luck finding your way back... although it will be a hell of a relief for the people around you if you don't, Jungkook spat in anger and with that he left Jimin all alone in a cemetery in the city that was nothing more but a stranger to him now.
Jimin was sitting there like a statue processing what Jungkook has said to him.
He had no money with him just a small jacket that was not enough to warm the smaller's body who sat there without protesting. He was too mentally frozen to analyze that he has been abandoned in a cold cemetery, not like it was a first anyway.
On the other hand, Jungkook rushed out of the cemetery, his thoughts caught up in a frenzy, his mind screaming at him to halt his steps, but his ego was too stubborn to go back.
Caught up in his self-enhanced anger and illogical loathing for the other, he didn't even realize that he was crossing all boundaries of humanity, that he was slowly being stripped of himself and being replaced by this monster who didn't have any regard or feeling for others.
He didn't even know at this point that the steps he is taking right now will become his curse.
This moment right now will haunt his very dreams and he will be drowning in self-loathing for many nights to come.
Only if he knew, what he was going to lose today.
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A/N: I know I owe an explanation to you guys but lately I can't bring myself to emotionally connect with my character because of which I am updating slow. I always want to deleiver quality content and I try to do that, which is taking a fair amount of time since I am also busy with other things in life.
I will do my best to do proper justice to this story, even if it takes a while.
I can't thank you all enough for sticking around for so long and showing this much patience.
Love you all <3 <3 <3
