lessons | k.th + p.jm (j.jk)

† • thirty-one

Everyone grew to dislike Jungkook and I, the majority of school just started to turn a cold shoulder to us both. Any class I had without Taehyung or Jungkook all my friends in that class now sat away from me and the same was happening to Jungkook. I mean who could blame them, I'd hate me too. Jungkook didn't seem to care really, he spent most days over at mine where we would either play video games or have sex. Sex with him didn't mean anything to me, it was a way to feel something other than sadness and it was way to feel normal in a way. Every time I told Jungkook that there weren't any feelings involved and because I let it happened it didn't mean I wanted to be serious with him, and every time he nodded his head and agreed.

I was in my classroom, patiently waiting for class to start as I sat alone like always. I got startled however when I saw Jungkook quickly rush in my room and sit next to me.

"Kook this isn't your class what are-"

"Yes I know but I need to tell you something!" He presented eagerly. 

"Um okay," I let him speak.

"Hoseok's having an open party tonight we have to go!" he exclaimed gripping onto his books.

"What? No Kook everyone hates us," I told him as my eyebrows furrowed together.

"They don't hate us!-"

"Is Taehyung going to be there?" I asked suddenly looking down at my book then back to the boy. I saw him visibly still before giving an answer.

"I-I don't know, I think so," he told me quickly. I went back to look at my book to try and think.

"Fine but I don't want to stay for long," I answered as I wrote in my book.

"Yay thank you, I'll pick you up tonight!" he yelled happily before kissing my cheek and running out. As soon as he left I immediately heard all the different whispers around me, talking about how much of asshole I am and how Jungkook is a horrible cheater. I groaned quietly and tried to concentrate on my work.

∞ 

It was about 10 pm and I was all dressed up for Hoseok's as I patiently waited for Jungkook in my room. I laid back on my bed thinking if going was still an okay idea or not. Logically no, it wasn't a good idea but Sana is always telling me I still need to go and socialise despite being depressed. I looked around my room, seeing all my photos with Taehyung still up around my room,  I hadn't spoken to him in weeks and I barely saw him at school, I had no idea what he had been up to either. A loud beep from outside signalled that Jungkook was out the front. 

The car ride was silent apart from a quick compliment on my appearance and that's it. We arrived at Hoseok's shortly after and the party had already kicked off. We made our way inside heading to the kitchen, there were heaps of people running around, just like his birthday party. 

"Do you want a drink?" Jungkook asked nicely too which I shook my head too, he shrugged his shoulders and poured himself a cup of coke and vodka.

"Hey!!- H-Hey what are you guys doing here?" We heard Hoseok's voice from behind us that started excited but grew confused upon seeing us.

"We um, wanting to get out of the house for a bit," Jungkook told him sipping his drink.

"Oh," Hoseok stated looking at both of us, "Just if you're gonna hook up with anyone tonight just make sure it's with each other... most people here have relationships," he spat rudely before leaving.

I looked at the floor trying not to cry, I hated having this reputation and ugly label on my name. I looked over at Jungkook who was biting the inside of his cheek.