Loving a wolf

Chapter 16

   I laid there in bed tears dropping down my face. I wish none of my past ever happened. I would be so much happier wouldn't I?
     I plugged in my headphones and listened to music. I began to sing along to the music as more tears fell down my face.

" She's only 17, her whole life's ahead of her.
She hates school because the people there discredit her.
Her boyfriend tries to show her that's not how it seems.
But every day she just gets lowered with her self-esteem.
He lets her know that every night will have a brighter day,
She even tried to overdose and take her life away.
She's feeling hopeless there just sitting down beside her bed,
And then he takes his hand and places it beside her head.
He tries to hold her but with every touch she still resists,
And then he sees the scars that bury deep within her wrists,
She's feeling numb, he tries to beg and plead and ask her, "Why?"
She says this way she has control of pain she feels inside.
He's asking her, "How long it's going since you've felt this way?
Because you got me here, just feeling so damn helpless."
She says, "It's been a while. I guess I needed better luck."
And then he screams at her and tells her, "Baby, never cut!"
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen, pretty lady, you don't have to be alone.
So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise, baby, yeah.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise, baby, you won't.
The next day at school she's feeling better than the day before.
Even cracked a couple smiles as she walked the corridor.
But all that seemed to end: she dropped her books when she walked into class.
And every student in the room just seemed to point and laugh.
She couldn't take it anymore, she sent her boy a text.
She said, "I love you with my body, heart and soul to death."
He thought nothing, typed, "I love you", then he sent it.
By "death" he didn't know that she had literally just meant it.
She ducked the next class, ran home into her bathroom.
Thought to herself she wouldn't break her promise that soon.
Not one cut, not two cuts, not three cuts, it's four
The blood just started dripping from the tub to the floor.
See her boyfriend had a feeling in his stomach that he hated.
He followed it right down to her house he never waited.
The front door was open, he heard the water running.
He stormed into the bathroom and his heart just started gunning
'Cause nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen, pretty lady, you don't have to be alone.
So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise, baby, yeah.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
Baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise, baby, you won't cut.
He puts her arm around his shoulder, he's tryna lean her back up.
Yelling out her name as he lays her beside the bathtub.
Feels his whole world just took a hit from a big avalanche.
Screaming out so heavily, "Somebody call an ambulance!"
Feeling mad angry like somebody's led her onto this.
Her eyeballs are rolling, drifting out of consciousness.
Thinking to himself why the hell didn't she stop at will.
The tears just keep on rolling as they head to the hospital.
Paramedics rush her in, doctor calls emergency.
She's lost a lot of blood the place looks like a murder scene,
An hour later, the doc walks over with a sour face,
And says, "Excuse me for the words that I'm about to say.
I'm sorry for your loss," the boy just starts collapsing.
His own world, his own girl just took a crashing.
Saying to himself that it's his fault and that he let it up.
"Baby, I thought you made a promise you would never cut."
Nobody seems to get you, you feel you're on your own,
But listen, pretty lady, you don't have to be alone.
So, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise.
I know your heart is hurting, you think the road has end,
You may just feel that blade you're holding is your only friend.
But, baby, don't cut, baby, don't cut.
You can do anything, just promise, baby, you won't cut.
Please don't cut. Baby don't cut, baby don't cut.
Baby, don't cut."
   Raph woke up and hugged me tightly and grabbed my wrists. I hisses in pain and looked down at my arms. I was scratching myself without realizing it. I felt the warm blood run down my scratches. I looked up at him as tears weld up in his eyes and kissed me.
   " baby I'm here and don't hurt ya self please" he cried as he hugged me tightly. I cried along with him and my body went limp. I cried into his shell and fell into darkness.
    Raphael POV
I cried as I held my sleeping angel in my arms. I hated that she felt like she was a true demon and she feels like shit. I put my back up against the wall and held her in my arms. I soon fell asleep with tears streaming down my face. " baby don't cut" I whispered in her sleeping ear as I fell asleep.