falling for u ➳ joshua hong

t w e n t y - s e v e n ☕️

haewon

it was christmas morning, and i was awoken by seungkwan waking me up. "noona-yah!" he said. "wake up! it's time to open presents!"

i fluttered my eyes open, and saw seungkwan annoyingly tapping my shoulder multiple times. sigh, sometimes i doubt that he's 14 years old.

"all right, all right. gosh, you're such a kid." i said, getting up. i wore my slippers and went out the room as seungkwan proceeded to wake hyungwon up. hyungwon and i slept in one room, and jisoo, my mom, my dad, and jisoo's mom stayed in the biggest bedroom.

i sat down on the couch, still half asleep as seungkwan was waking everyone else up. i checked the time; 6:58 AM. gosh, seungkwan was so hyped for christmas.

after everyone lazily arrived in the room (excluding seungkwan), we all opened our gifts as my grandmother was making breakfast. by the time we were halfway done opening presents, the breakfast was already served.

"yah! stop opening your presents for a minute and eat your breakfast!" my grandma said. "okay." i said.

we all sat on our chairs and ate our breakfast. "by the way, haewon?" my mom spoke.

"hmm?"

"when is sojung and her sister arriving here?" she asked.

"ah, she's coming here tomorrow. she's not staying here with us, though. they bought a hotel near us, so they'll just stay with us during the day but not the night."

"ohh, okay. good thing they booked a hotel. there are no more spaces in this house anymore." she said jokingly, making us chuckle.

then i remembered, "i haven't wrapped her gifts yet!"

i bought her two things; a new bag for christmas, and a bunch of chocolate and sweets for her birthday, which was last week, december 17.

i put the sweets in a little paper bag, put some crepe paper inside, covering the sweets. i put the bag in a box, then wrapped it to make it not seem like a bag. by the time we were done, everyone was done eating and we proceeded with opening the gifts.

i got so many awesome stuff; books, clothes, shoes, food, etc. after that, we continued with our christmas day.

at around 1PM, we attended the mass; since it was a tradition for our family during christmas. after that, we went around the town, and overall, i had a really good time.

when night time came, we went to this restaurant in the city. it wasn't snowy, but it was really chilly outside. there was this little porch that faces the water, and then, there were fireworks.

we watched as the fireworks lit the night sky. we got home at around, 7:30 PM. and that's where i am, now; sitting at the second floor balcony, staring the beautiful night sky.

considering that there were barely any street lamps nearby, the stars shone even brighter. i was sipping on some hot chocolate, deep in thought, until i heard the balcony door open.

even if i was very curious to see who it was, i didn't move a muscle. i was too relaxed to see who it was. "what are you doing out here?" a calm voice asked.

"just, enjoying the fresh air." i said. the person sat down beside the chair i was sitting on, and from the corner of my eye, i could tell that person was jisoo.

"you know, stars remind me of you." he said.

i chuckled. "and why is that?"

"they're really bright, and they shine a lot. they always manage to still stand out even on the darkest nights. they make me calm, and they're really beautiful creations, even if they stay far away from me," he said. "just like you; beautiful, calming, and shining, even if you're far away."

i smiled, and looked at jisoo. he was smiling back, but looking at the stars. after a few seconds, he looked at me.

"i like you, chae haewon."

i couldn't believe what he said. he likes me? the guy who ruined half of my life likes me. my smile faded and i looked down. i noticed that tears were forming in the corner of my eyes.

"w-why are you crying?" he said.

right, why am i crying? the guy who i liked likes me back. shouldn't i be happy? but there's a presence of the -ed in "liked". i liked him, but i stopped liking him because of what he did.

but there was a presence of something in my insides. i could almost hear a voice saying, "he likes you, go for it." and another voice, saying, "no, he hurt you. don't." what should i choose?

"i-i'm sorry." i said, standing up and walking towards my brother and i's room.

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that night, i couldn't think of anything but him. there was just something inside me... guilt? love? hatred? i don't even know, anymore.

but then, with all those thoughts, i made a conclusion; i'm falling for you again, hong jisoo. i'm falling for you, and it's too late to back out.

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this book is getting boring, but dont worry, it's ending in a few more chapters. im gonna make the next chapters a bit longer than usual and have more settings in it bc im trying to make this book have only 30 chapters. ok, thats it, bye.

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