Vent warning
I don't know what it is or why
But my brain keeps on going back to the same things
"Tired"
"Cut"
"Die"
Theres this silent sound in my head that seems so loud
Like the sounds of the ocean of a stormy day
But instead of being on land listening to the sounds
Im on the ship
Ive been thinking of overdosing
Cutting to ungodly ammounts
Just sleeping and never getting up
Everything's too much
I want to die but i have people to like for
I have blue and momo
I have my sister
I have my animals
My crush
My friends
All mean the absolute world to me
But its just gotten so hard
Im at the point of desperation that i just want to cut enough to be sent to the hospital
So i can get help after taking out all my anger
Its not the right way I know
But it seems like the only way out at this point
The only way I can let people know I am hurting
Because just telling them will do nothing
They wont care
They wont care until they know I'm serious
Im done crying
I want it to be over
I want help
But no one who can actrually support me physically is actrually helping
Im sorry if I end up doing something dangerous
I'm too scared to do anything anyway
I haven't done anything yet
I don't really want to
