Secrets

10

Astrid's pov
"I want you to join our crew"he said and I was shocked.

I let what he had just said sink in a bit. I didn't think it was a good idea I kinda wanted to keep my identity a secret.

"I can't"I said not daring to look at him.

"And why the hell not"he growled

"Because then I'd have to show you who I really am"I said and he gripped my face and made me look at him.

"I don't give a shit who you really are I just want you to fight for my crew"he said sternly the coldness in his eyes reminded me of Eric's and my mother's. I couldn't bare look at the anymore.

"I fight alone"I said and released myself from his grip and ran.

I fight back the tears. I'm afraid is I start to cry I'll never stop. I ran in startling the assholes.

"ASTRID"I heard Eric yell. I walked back down wiping my tears. I saw Dylan.

"Yes"I said and glared at Dylan.

"Dylan here told us that you broke up with him is that true"my mother asked

"We were never together bastard just wants to use me for a fuck"I spat and he growled.

"We don't give a shit I just want my drugs so you will do what he asks"my mother said venom lacing her voice.

"Absolutely fucking not, es un maldito"i said and Eric walked up to me and slapped me.

"YES YOU FUCKING WILL"he yelled and threw a punch. I laughed at how weak it was.

"Is that all you got"I yell at him. He punched me many more punches. I didn't even make a sound. He kept getting pissed but I'm not gonna give him the pleasure of crying.

He then grabbed me by my hair and pulled me up.

"Is that enough for you"he growled and I spat at his face. He wiped his face aggressively and threw me on the floor.

"Dylan take her and Fuck the life out of her"my mother said and Dylan chuckled and grabbed me.

"STOP"I yelled anger lacing my voice. "How can you hate who i am so much"I asked my low life mother.

"I've done nothing but try and try to fucking please you, I never understood why you hate me so much even when daddy was around, JUST TELL ME WHY"I yelled tears coming out.

"Because I never wanted you, I never wanted children, but your father forced me and then when you were born I was nothing to him that's why because you took the love of my life and then you go and kill him"she yelled back.

"I didn't kill him I was five, we got in a car crash, I fucking tried pulling him out the car but I couldn't, my five year old body couldn't handle his weight, and plus it's not like you were there to see it, you didn't fucking hear his screams how when the car blew up and how the fire melted his skin off his bones, his screams of agony, I can still hear them, so don't tell me your going through something much worse because your not"I said and struggled to get out of Dylan's arms. "You let's a low like asshole beat your own blood and you don't just watch but join in, you went through all that pain to have me just to abuse me like I'm nothing but trash like I'm a fucking mistake and i shouldn't be here"i added.

"That's exactly what you are a piece of trash and you deserve nothing but what we are giving you"she spat on my face. "Dylan do as you please"said and i Just gave up.

I gave up and everything and everyone and the thought that someone was ever gonna love me. At this point I just want to go with my father. The one person who truly loved me.

"Daddy please take me with you"I whispered to myself.

Dylan threw me on my bed. He ripped my clothes off. And took his off. This was just my second time and it wasn't gentle. It hurt. I wanted to kill them with every fiber in my body. I should have just gone with Joesph.

When he was finally finished, he just left me there and slapped me. I walked to my bathroom. My private so fucking sore. I got in the shower and scrubbed myself till I felt like I was gonna bleed. I felt disgusting. I finally finished my shower and got dressed into a pair of leggings and a oversized t shirt. I crawled into bed and closed my eyes afraid to cry.

Shit I even cried while writing 🤧 but whose black knight and his lap dogs, still an unanswered question 🤷🏻‍♀️Bye loves💛💛 ~luna