The night I went to be by Damien side on his mothers birthday I just held him while he slept. I felt so bad for him he had a crazy life and it makes him how he is now. Even though I never judge him I only loved him. Every time we on a good place he either snaps or does something and fucks up. See I've learn that him losing his mother took a toll on him. But he doesn't understand that I'm here to help him cope. Damien doesn't like to get to attach which is why I'm surprised he loves me so much.
We are still divorced and are living separate and I absolutely hate it. Damien went to get help he went to a therapist for a couple of months. And I see a change in him but he insist we stay separated. As much as I hate to do it I had to move on. Of course I love Damien with everything in me and I need him just as much as he needs me. But I guess separating was for the best as he says. It's been almost a year we've been divorced.
I've been keeping my distance from Damien because my heart still beats for him. But I don't think he loves me anymore I think he move on for good. I only see him when he gets the kids and that's once a week. We barely say full sentences to each other it's so weird. I can't even look him in his eyes it's to much for me. At times I still cry and I still am hurt but I guess we wasn't meant to be. I just can't see where I went wrong I did everything for him I gave him one hundred percent. I forgave him every time, nothing he ever did to me made me love him less.
I haven't been out in months since my twentieth birthday. I'm excited to go out tonight Aiden is throwing himself a party and he invited me out. The only thing I'm dreading is seeing Damien I know he gonna be there. And I honestly don't think I'm strong enough to face him. Everyone knows we are divorced now even my dad they don't know the real reason why though. We just told them we grew out of love and we are happy co-parenting which is a lie for me but we didn't want everyone in our business.
I looked at the clock and it read 8:27pm I sigh getting out of bed. The party starts at ten thirty so I should start getting ready now.
After showering and doing the rest of my hygiene. I lotion my body and sprayed some perfume on. I put my robe on and did my makeup and hair. I slipped my robe off and put on my lime green pants romper. It stuck to my body like glue it had a deep slit broadcasting my boobs. I choose my yellow Chanel purse and some red bottoms.
I sprayed some more perfume and brush my hair and proceeded to leave it was eleven at night now. Aiden mom had all the kids tonight she wanted them which was good because momma was coming out as well. I hoped in my all black Mercedes Benz truck that my daddy got me and drove to the club.
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Blinded by loveGeneral Fiction
17 year old Alexis falls in love with her dad right hand man Damien who is 27. Blinded by love she takes the abuse and still stands by his side. Will he change or will he take the abuse to far? Read to find out.