𝐁𝐀𝐃 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 - 𝐉𝐀𝐄𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐆

一

taeyong pov

it's already 6 am and i haven't sleep yet.
i can't stop thinking, my eyes won't close.
i have this pain in my chest that makes my breath heavy.

i just want to stay in bed.

i don't want to go to school.
'cause it's the same every time.
getting bullied.
always.

why do they do that to me ?
do i really deserve that ?

i don't understand.

i just want all this to stop.
i want the suffering to end.

i want my life to stop.
i want to end me.

but like every mornings at this time, my alarm rings.

i slowly get out of my bed and go to the bathroom.
my stomach hurts so much, it gives me nausea.
i didn't eat for 3 days. but that's surely not enough to be skinny and beautiful.

i take my toothbrush, kneeling in front of the toilet, and put it deep in my throat until i vomit.
it hurt so bad. my throat burns.
hot tears are falling on my cheeks.

i slowly get up, cleaning myself,
feeling dizzy,
and go take clothes in my closet.

longs sleeves, like always. oversized clothes to hide my ugly body.

i look at myself in the mirror.
i'm so disgusting, i'm so fat.

i hate myself so much.
i hate my live so much.

i stay like this, cursing at myself for almost one hour before getting my way to school.

fuck school
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bonjour,
so this is the first chapter,
and i already regret writing a story this sad. i bet i'm going to cry while writing the next chapters.

do you guys want a sad or happy end ?
i haven't decided yet.

next chapter next sunday, please look forward to it!

- 𝔃𝓪𝓬𝓴