💔Kaira ff : kismat ka khel💔

◽️Part 6 ( Naira pov)◽️

So guys there's the nest part of this story, I'm disappointed with the response, but never mind plz vote n comment, plzzzzzzzzzz
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Naira POV
It was the day, the day which I never wanted to come in my life after that accident, but it came when I heard the news that we r going back to India for a stupid deal, I was literally shivering, coz India is the only place where I got my everything n also where I lost my everything, in my mind think what roaming was Kartik n only Kartik how is he, is he fine??? But I never got this answers, in these 6 months in never dared to think about Kartik coz I know if I think about him I will be weak n I can never be weak, coz is the danger was for me then I will be ok but no I'm not that lucky the danger was for my Kartik, n I never can be selfish n specially about Kartik, he's my jaan, my heartbeat, my breath my everything, I can never think about happening something with Kartik.
Coming back, in these 2 days, Ranveer didn't touch me not even beat me. Strange, right!!!!! First I thought it's may be coz he's busy, but later I got it that is coz we have to travel. But wait, you guys r thinking why I'm bothering, all for me is good na that he didn't rape me or beat me, then let me tell you I'm not desperate, I'm bothering coz I didn't get the punishment, you guys r thinking punishment of what, so punishment of hurting my Kartik, now you guys r thinking how I hurted him simple, by saying those harsh words that I not love him, all was fake, I married him for money, now I'm with Ranveer, only I now how much pain I was saying those harsh to him, it was very difficult for me but more than for my Kartik, I hurted him sooooo much na so I'm giving myself punishment, now you're thinking what kind of punishment, so the punishment is that Ranveer every day should beat me if he wants he can do anything with me I will not stop him, if he wants he can even rape me, I will not stop him, why coz I want to hurt myself coz I hurted my Kartik na so I want to hurt myself. He was so much hurt by those word, n whenever I remember his condition that how he was asking me that if I was joking, I love him or not, I myself go to Ranveer n handed him the belt n he beats me ever Shimair also she also beats me, n then I smile that I getting what I deserve, even this not give me satisfaction na I also took, wait don't tell anyone it's a secret shhhhhh🤫🤫, so I whenever I felt lyk punishing me more I took, ANTI-DEPRESSION PILLS💊, it's shocking right, this think don't even know Bela, Rubina or Mahir bhai, yes I call him bhai he is lyk my Naksh bhai. I miss my brotherly love, but I deserved it. Ufffff I unfold so many secrets na but don't tell no one is no one, ok only you n me, ufff so many emotional talks na, see I was talking to u guys n I don't even know that is evening, no one was in the house, I was not afraid coz now I can punish myself, yeahhh, you guys r thinking I am mad, then answer is yes, coz I hurted my Kartik so I'm mad n I will hurt myself more, ok so secret, I went to washroom n changed into a sexy nighty, whenever I'm alone at home I wear such nighty coz, shhh I will not tell, I come from washroom n I started my work, that was destroy my own fucking life, oops sorry no these types of words, sorry, then I started taking n that was ALCOHOL 🍷 yes I drink alcohol since that incident took place in my life I started drinking, why coz I listened that alcohol destroy your life so I started drinking, k later I take a packet n take a stick I light the fire in the stick, n after some time I take out of my mouth, n it was CIGARETTE, yes I also start smoking, coz the same reason smoking destroy your life so for this, coz I wanna destroy my life, I also tried to suicide coz I don't wanna live this life where is not my Kartik, but Rubina understand me, but thought of something wrong, that was I have to live this life, if I end this life so easily then it won't be great, coz my Kartik is tormented every single second n I who was the reason of his condition will end this life so easily no I will live this life n I will torment how my Kartik was, so I decided to live this life, suddenly I saw some scratches on my arm n neck n started scratching my arms n neck that blood started dozing from the body part then I have a urge to have IT I started searching something n finally I search IT I immediately inject IT in my arm n my version become blur n in no time I was blacked out.
POV ends
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Ok guys I tried to write the POV n a emotional part describing naira feeling n I literally don't know if I was successful or not but I don't know guys but some word for the POV b naira feelings. VOTE N COMMENT
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