SHUT UP! jenzie

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THE SECOND I WAKE UP, THE memories of last night flood back into my brain. i groan as my head aches so bad. i grab a tablet out of my drawer and put it in my mouth chugging water from a random bottle i found beside me. i'm still in yesterday's clothes. i look beside me and pick my phone up. ah shit...

johnE😒💙
please don't take what happened yesterday to heart.
you weren't thinking straight.

huh..? what is he talking about. holy- no no no no no. the image of me running to johnny and kissing him pops up in my brain. i just ruined our friendship. i kissed him without telling him how i feel, i'm glad i didn't tell him because now i know he doesn't feel the same way.

i quickly text nadia and annie telling them i got home safe. if john wasn't at that party, i would've fallen asleep on the street.

i regret kissing him.

i can't face talking to johnny about this, i'll act like i don't remember

kenzie
i'm sorry for ruining last night for you.
what happened yesterday?

johnE😒💙
oh nothing, you just got really drunk

kenzie
did i do anything stupid?

'typing'

a minute later and it still says 'typing'

johnE😒💙
nope, can't wait to snitch on u and tell maddie ur dumbass got drunk

kenzie
fuck you 🙄

i can't believe johnny's not going to tell me that i kissed him yesterday. my phone buzzes again,

johnE😒💙
hehe

johnE😒💙
wanna get coffee later?

i can't face him now, i look like a mess, and i'm just too embarrassed. i shouldn't be considering johnny is my best friend.

kenzie
sorry, i have to study

johnE😒💙
for what?

kenzie
english

johnE😒💙
how about after that?

kenzie
sorry i'm busy after that :/

johnE😒💙
k bye.

he knows i'm lying. of course he knows.

after a long hot shower and a lot of thinking, i wear some sweats and a cropped shirt. nadia walks in our room. "hey... i saw johnny downstairs, i thought you would be with him" she says as she looks for something in her drawer.

"alright nads..." she looks at me and raises a questionable eyebrow. i pat the spot beside me on my bed indicating she should sit there.
she plops down, her curls bouncing with her, oh god i wish i looked like her

"i kind of kissed johnny after the party yesterday" i play with my fingers

"bitch what!?" her hazel eyes grow so wide i'm afraid they might pop out.