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~8~

(Play song when it is jahsehs POV)

Sinlis POV

As I walk out of jahs house I begin to tear up. I don't want to ruin our friendship and risk loosing him for good. I hop in my car taking it out of park and start driving.

Once I arrive home I get undressed and lay in bed thinking. It's still early, it's 4:48 so I decide to get undressed into just booty shorts and a sports bra.

When I finish I go to my kitchen and get something to eat. I eat some pancakes and eggs with a side of bacon. Once I'm finished eating I go back upstairs and lay down thinking about the kiss. I begin to get emotional but I try to hold my tears back.

If only I wasn't such a dumbass I wouldn't have done that. I decided to cry for a couple of minutes to get it out of my system. Once the tears didn't come out anymore I get up and go to the bathroom to wipe my face off.

Then I thought I could watch a movie to clear my mind and relax for a little while. I walk out of the bathroom and grab my phone seeing I received a text from 2 unknown numbers.

1. Unknown number
Hey biiitch it's deea I wanted to know if I can come over to hang out?

2. Unknown number
I saw what you and jahseh did don't think I won't be watching you two.

When I read the second message I thought it was a joke so I just ignored it and decided to reply to deea.

Sure why not I was just about to chill in my living room and watch a movie

I waited for deea to text back while going thru my book bag for my charger once I find it I plug it in next to my bed and set the phone on the nightstand to charge. About five minutes later I get a text back from deea.

Aii I'm on my way mamas

I grab a blanket after reading the message and wrap myself in it, I walk into the bathroom to check my face to see if you can tell I've been cryin. Since I couldn't tell I go downstairs and turn on the tv.

putting Netflix on there was a knock at my door. I fix my blanket and then go answer the door to see deea I move to the side so deea can walk in.

When she comes in she says "girl it looks like you been crying what happened" "oh I um.. me and jah sorta kissed and I ran off after.." I say as I walk to the couch and fall face forward.

"Aww Whyd you run off?" She says sitting on top of my butt rubbing my back. "Well I kinda thought that I made a bad decision kissing him" "oh why do you think that" she says "because we recently met I don't want to ruin our friendship" I say as I turn around so she is now sitting on my bladder.

"Well if it didn't feel right for now just don't bring it up unless your comfortable to talk with him about it, but knowing him he's gonna wanna know why because he overthinks a lot" she says as she gets up lifting my legs and sitting back down and places my legs in her lap.

After our talk about the kiss we began to ask each other questions as we watched the movie. I already felt like we had a bond hopefully it last for awhile.

Then we just stop talking and begin to continue watching the movie and relax.

Jahsehs POV

I wake up after a 1 hour nap (it is now 5:48) and decide to record a second song but save it to upload for another time. While finding an instrumental I make sure it's a slow beat and a comforting pace.

Then once I find the perfect instrumental I begin to write what I feel and what comes to mind.

Trapped in the concept falsely accused misused and misled

Bitch, I'm hoping you fucking
Rest In Peace

Now the fact that I'm alone is fucking comforting

And I can't seem to shake this fucking feeling in my
(Heead)

Once I write this first part, this took at least an hour to get the order, I decide to take a little break so that I can go eat. I head into the kitchen and get some bread and peanut butter to make a sandwich.

As I'm eating I think of the instrumental and begin freestyling to it in my head. I'm feeling inspired and also stressed. Which makes good for a lot of deep feeling songs that I've been trying to create for my fan base that is also in a bad state of mind like I am.

When I finish eating I wash my hands along with my face and head back to the studio. I take a seat and continue to write my lyrics.

Cold shoulder
Heart broken
Misspoken
I'm cut open
The fingers in all my stab wounds

And if she could
She'd prolly dance
on my grave

Inside my head
I see your face,

I fucking hate
That I love you still

Carry on, life flies, so just carry on
With this pain inside of my chest
Got no choice but to carry on (x3)

I finally finish, this took about 3 more hours (it is now 9:58) to write and i finally place the paper inside my completed work folder and put it in my desk drawer.

When I walk out of the room I begin thinking about the kiss me and Sinlis had shared not too long ago. Her lips were so soft I can't believe she regretted kissing me.

As I began getting deep into thought I lay back down and stare at my ceiling thinking of what to do next. I decide to just got to sleep once again so I can wake up to a new day.