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Journal Entry #2-6

Ok Tord is really starting to freak me out.
He started saying that he could see dead people like his uncle or something who he hasn't seen in like 7 years?
He keeps mumbling things and Icant hear him.
I know that im suposed to hate him and stuffbut he is seriously starting to scare me and I'm getting worried.
But besides that Edd and I are going to the doctor today to see what the fuck is wrong with him.
Hopefully it isn't anything bad.
Only time will tell.

Edd has cancer.
The doctor said that we were lucky that we caught it early and may be able to treat it.
Hopefully.
Its already bad enough that Tord is freaking me out right now and Matt has stopped talking to us.
Everything is falling apart right now.
I'm gonna try and look up whats wrong with Tord and try and talk to Matt.
We cant take him to the hospital for obvious reasons.
Please please be ok.
The three of you.

I'm done.
I cant.
Edd said that he knew some old friends that were doctors.
So he wanted to check Tord to see if he knows or remembers what they told him about sicknesses or something.
He said that Tord might be dieing.
Of course I didn't believe him.
Theres no way.
Right?
He was fine up until now.
What did I do wrong?
I asked if he was just sick.
I prayed he was.
He told me no.
I begged him to take him to the hospital to see whats wrong even though he had a criminal record.
There is nothing they can do.
Edd said to wait a bit before we can do anything.
I can't stand watching someone die.
Espicially someone I was close to at some point.
Hell I almost fucking DIED from alcohol poisoning because I thought I had killed the man.

I fucking prayed that he would be alright.
I thought that Edd was wrong.
He told me that theres nothing we can do.
I told him that he was wrong.
He told me to look up the stages of death.
I didn't want to.
But I did.
I want to go back to drinking so.
Fucking.
Bad.
But if it weren't for them.
Id be dead.
I begged him to let me into the room.
After a while I finally got through him.
The moment I entered that room was the moment I regreted everything.
The noise he was making will forever be burned into the back of my head.
I wanted to be sick.

After a while of thinking.
Edd said that it could be his body giving up on him.
What ever had happened ontop of that hill.
What ever fucking chemical it was.
Killed him.
Hes practicaly dead because of me.
I did this.
I shouldn't have shot that damn harpoon.
Maybe hed still be alive.
He wouldve lived long enough to find someone.
Maybe even have a family.
But no.
Because of me.
Because of me he is slowly dieing.
Because of me he is approaching deaths door.
Because of me he is laying on his death bed.
God.
Please just.
Kill me now.