Am fear eile ~Outlander~

~Chapter Fifty Six~ Skye~

Sexual content
I tried to stay away as far as I could from the Watch while they stayed at Lallybroch, while Jamie acted somehow normally to them, causing a bit of a fuss here and there.
"Jamie," I laughed as his hand crept slowly under mine nightdress.
"Whit?" He asked innocently and I swapt away his hand.
"Not tonight please," I whispered and turned around to see him look disappointed. "I'm bleeding,"
"Ow," he brought out and pulled his hand away. "Anither time then,"
"Jamie," I said again and he looked at me. "Do ye want childeren?" I asked and I saw his face shift.
"Aye," he answered softly. "Bit nae noo,"  he quickly said after it.
"I know and before you think. No you didn't knock me up," I smiled and he sighed from relieve. "But what if I was?"
"Th' bairn is mair than welcom, than. Mo ghràdh, bit Skye a'm still a fugitive th' bairn wouldn't hae a future," he spoke softly and than he tought about something. "Mo ghràdh, promise me something," he sounded almost desperate.
"Anything Jamie," I promised and he looked at me.
"Whin th' time is thare 'n' thay git me. 'n' at th' identical time yer caring mines bairn in yer womb, promise me tae gang back thro' th' stanes tae give oor bairn a future, ah coudnae give it 'ere." He said seriously and mine eyes filled with tears.
"Oh Jamie," I laid mine hand on his cheek and he pressed it closer towards him.
"Promise me Skye, Promise," he begged and I nodded.
"Yes, James Alexander Malcom Mackenzie Fraser, I promise that," I spoke and pressed myself closer to his bare chest, letting mine tears spill.
I know one day Jamie would be caught for something or he could be killed in the Jacobite rising that was only a few years away. But the taught of leaving him pained me and thinking I would leave him while caring a child of him even more.
"Shht Mo Ghràdh," he whispered in mine hair and than said something in Gaelic that sounded like a promise and pray in one.
I kept crying until mine eyes hurted and closed for a restless sleep.

In the middle of the night I woke up gasping for air as I struggled to breath from the horrible nightmare I had.
"Mo Ghràdh?" I heared the voice of Jamie spoke in the night as he reached out to me.
Without thinking I almost literally threw myself at him and mine lips finding him in the dark, like a bat finds his way home in a cave.
"Skye nae," Jamie whispered. "Yer bleeding,"
"It doesn't matter Jamie," I spoke as I kept kissing him passionately and let mine hands wander down his body. "I need you now,"
It wasn't a lie, after the dream, where our parting mostly played the leadrole in, I needed him to prove he was still here with me, that we where still together.
Jamie letted out a grunt as I cupped him, luckily for me he slept always naked even tho it was freezing cold. I moved mine hand as he laid his arms around mine waist forcing me to kiss him even deeper and passionately.
"Skye," he stopped me. "Ah dinna wanna spill," he said and I let him go.
I quickly pulled mine nightdress over mine head and Jamie immediately locked his lips around one nipple.
"Ah canna wait," he spoke and I looked down at him.
"For what?" I asked breathlessly as he placed his lips around the other one.
"Fur th' moment yer belly is round, carrying oor bairn 'n' then whin ah touched yer breest it spills th' milk that mak's it graw whin it's oot o' thare." Absent he carressed with his hands the place where it would grow. "A saw it in a dream. Skye. Ye keeked sae bonny 'n' proud."
Apparently I wasn't the only one who had dream of our future and to be honest Jamie had a much nicer dream. Suddenly all things where gone like a small dust partical.
Here in this room he wasn't a fugitive and I wasn't a time traveler. Here in this room we where James and Skye Fraser, husband and wife. Nothing more nothing less.
"I want it Jamie," I whispered and he looked at me his blue eyes now darkened with lust. "Give me your child."
I know it was not possible today but there where many days to come for us to give it a try.
"Pleasure," he grunted and lifted me up to place me down again.
The movements where swift and hard but certainly enjoyable. After a few more thrust Jamie spilled and than he pulled me closer to him.
"We shouldn't discuss this hings afore bed, mo ghràdh, it made me dream pure weird," he whispered against mine throat.
"If this kind of subjects are making you behave this way, we are surely gonna discuss this more before bed," I smiled. "But give me than the pleasant dream instead of the unpleasant one.
"Hmh?" Jamie looked up before he attacked mine neck again.
"I dreamed we said goodbye," he immediately pressed me closer to him and since we where still joined I felt him harden again.
"Ne'er Skye! ah will ne'er lea ye." he promised. "Thay hae tae drag me awa' fae ye. Deid!"
"Jamie don't say that," I laid mine hand on his cheek. "It was just a dream," I said more to myself than him.
He nodded and than dived forward to kiss me again.
"Bit this isnae a dream, this is th' reality," and with that ths conversation of the night was closed.