Two

Read this note rn no matter where u r in the book

Hey.

So, I'm here to deliver some news.

I don't know if many of you seen the post I did about this, but this is going a little more further into it.

Throughout this series, I have deleted a lot of comments. Probably over 50. I honestly should have deleted more but sometimes I just don't have the time. I won't lie, some of the comments make me disgusted with my writing. That my writing has to potential to come off like that.

Some authors may not mind, but I do.

I have a big problem on this book regarding sexualization of the kids and commenting something insensitive.

First off, I want to get out of the way... I'm not mad. Im not writing this to shame all of you (just a few of you). Im upset with myself. If I had written it better, maybe my point would have crossed differently? So, the result of all this is going to be deletion of this book and it's epilogue. I would rewrite it, but I don't think I can. Not without changing the entire plot.

Second, you all know i love children. My career path has to do with children. I grew up around them all my life. I loved writing Minseo and Minjae.
Those two are so special. So, when I come on here to see people sexualizing them or what they say, I am disgusted. These are babies.

At first, there was one or two comments. Two turned into four. Four turned into ten. Ten turned into twenty five. And it kept growing. I wasn't sure what to do. To be honest, I still don't. I don't want to go on a tangent or anything because I don't think half of you realize it.

But, saying things about the term "daddy" being used by a 3 year old, or how one of them is going to grow up "sexy" or things like that... I feel sick reading those things. Imagine seeing a (I know some of y'all are REALLY young) 12 year old or older saying those things about a 3 year old.

It's pedophilia and I don't want to be a contributor to letting that grow and be normalized. I've deleted most of them, but there is a chain of where a lot of people are saying things about Minseo saying daddy while sitting on Yoongi's lap. Out of the many, many comments... I've only seen maybe 3 people commenting to stop sexualizing what she said.

Third, I know I put controversial things in there. Honestly, my fault for this part. I should have had thicker skin for putting those in....

A big one is when Jungkook comes to realizing the pain and loss that comes from abortion. I wrote that as a way for readers to imagine this book Yoongi without those kids. How much pain that would have been for Yoongi, after hearing the heartbeat and falling in love with them, and then loosing them. Because, let's be honest. Sometimes, abortion kills the person too (on the inside). Cases where they couldn't have the babies because their putting their health in danger, it really rips them apart. I've seen my friends go through things like that and I've never seen someone so torn like she was. She's still not the same. That part was to bring those emotions to attention, and to support people that go through that. To say: I may not understand completely but, I see you. I'm here for you.

I've deleted most of them but there's a few up still. That part isn't for you to start a whole pro-life vs pro-choice thing. That part is a This shit is emotional and can really tear a person apart if they felt a connection with that baby part. And if you are a person who commented on that- I'm not calling you out. There was a lot and of course it's gonna spark some things. I wasn't there to diffuse it.

There's also a good bit of teaching younger relatives certain things. I won't name anything. But, please think about what you're teaching them. Some of the things I've read about that can be damaging or straight up mocking someone. You may think it's funny and you and your friends may say it, but hey! That kid doesn't know when to say that stuff. They don't know the weight of their words and how it may weigh on other people.

We can't move forward if we are teaching our younger generations to stay right here. Teach them with a gentle hand and strong morals. To have empathy and compassion.

Lastly, I may delete this book because of the problems above. But, I may just delete my account. Writing is so fun and I love it. I do. But, over all my books... there's a lot of toxic behavior and honestly, it's making me not want to write anymore. I know this should be a more what I think is most important! It's my work! But, I can't. I'm sorry, I can't.

I can't keep logging on everyday and deleting comments. I can't keep seeing these things because it really dampens my soul.

I'll missing writing so much. It's a big decision to me, and I'll be thinking about it for a while.

Thank you.

-Min