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∆ 7. SENSITIVE YET INSENSITIVE ∆

Taehyung's

"Goodbye Namjoon! See you again tomorrow."

Jin hyung and I escorted Namjoon to the front door and Jin hyung bid him goodbye. I keep looking at him and his smile was never wiped off his face the whole time Namjoon was here.

They were talking and enjoying each other's presence and would not include me. Namjoon is a bad influence for Jin hyung. Never in the span of our friendship did Jin hyung ignored me, only now, and it's because of Namjoon!

It's official. I hate him now.

I felt Jin hyung's finger straighten up my eyebrows that is furrowed because of how I am so mad and irritated at Namjoon.

"Hey, you look so mad and constipated. I'll go upstairs and change clothes. You follow after you change in your pajamas. We will talk."

He went upstairs and I changed into my pajamas. I'm getting anxious because I forgot what alibi should I use to dodge his questions.

"Taehyung?"

Jin hyung shouted at the other room.

"On my way!"

I rushed to his room and quickly jumped on the bed with him. I turned sideways facing him. This is it. I can't really avoid it. We are really going to talk about it.

"So, what's your problem? Are you sure this is not about Jungkook?"

"No, hyung. I'm certain it's not about him."

"Then, what is?"

I gulped, I think O should say it, "Hyung, do you love Namjoon?"

His eyes widened and he looked so surprised, "I love Namjoon, if course he's my friend. But what does Namjoon have to do with your problem? You like Namjoon?"

Now it's my turn to get surprised. I don't like him, not one bit. "No, hyung! I don't like him. I really despise him, hyung. I don't want him around you or all over you. I don't want to see him."

"Why are you acting like that, Taehyung? He's nice."

"I know he is nice, but he doesn't deserve you. Stay away from him hyung. Don't go near him, please."

He held my hand before speaking again, "I can't do that. He has not done any harm. He is very nice. Don't be like that to him."

"But he is taking you away from me! Can't you see, you have less time for me since he came. Your attention was divided! I just want you all for me. Just like a while ago, you forgot that I was there and you were so sweet and you keep on laughing with him. I thought I'm your favorite person, does that changed now? Stay away from him hyung!"

His hands gripped tighter on mine and I can feel that he is angry at me.

"I can't do that." He spoke calmly but I can feel the weight of his every word.

"Why? Is he more important than me?"

"He closed his eyes tightly. He is getting mad at me. I know it.

"Taehyung don't be childish. He is my friend, and a visitor. I need to make him feel welcomed."

"Welcomed? Does welcoming him require you to ignore me the whol time?"

"I did not ignored you, plus we are living together, I can talk to you all the time! Don't be childish! I didn't act like that when you are with Jungkook and you would completely ignore me and won't even spare a glance! Don't question my closeness with Namjoon, when I didn't speak up when you shamelessly made out with several persons right in front of my face!"

His face is now red and he still won't understand me.

"It's different, hyung!"

"How was that different, Taehyung?"

"Because you don't need me, you can handle yourself. While me, I needed you all the time, and if Namjoon takes you away from me, then I'll be crazy."

"Who said I don't need you? Do you hear yourself, Taehyung? You really think I don't need you? Are you crazy?"

He sat up and stared at me, "You don't know what you are talking about, Taehyung. You don't." He said in a low voice.

I also got up and faced him, "I know what I'm talking about, hyung. Just wait for me to move on from Jungkook."

He lifted his face and he looked at me expectantly, "Then what?"

"Then you can love him freely, Just wait for me to be happy again, then you can find your happiness with Namjoon. Just don't do it right now. I still can't let you go."

Jin hyung's tears fell and I started panicking

"What's happening to you, hyung!? Why are you crying?"

"You really don't care about what I feel don't you?"

"What do you mean?"

"I love you, Taehyung, years ago I loved you, and now I'm still in love with you. I love you even if you're an asshole or even if you always set me aside. I love you so much but you also kill me everytime. Don't you know how deep it hurts? I was hoping right there, when you say that I should wait for you to move on, but what do I expect? It's always Kookie."

He turned his face away from me and I was shocked.

"I-it's that true, hyung?"

He did not answered me.

"Hyung!"

"It's true! God damn it!" You're just too insensitive!"

I can't believe what I just heard.

I stood up. I needed to leave. I need to Breathe.

"Where are you going?" Jin hyung spoke when I reached the door.

"I'll just go out. I can't accept this."