"Because when I saw you with her-when I saw you with Maggie, not the other day, I walked in room not but seconds later and cried, I cried like I never did before because I never felt such heartache like this, and when you tell me that me and you are- will be nothing that's when I know that I got to move on" Zion said. "I have to because it hurts" Zion concluded feeling a weight being lifted off his chest.
"Brandon, can you tell me how to stop feeling like this? Because I don't think I can don't think I could do this, not as this" Zion said in a huff.
"Zion- I really don't know, I can't heal you and I don't know if I can give you what you want," Brandon said wiping his hair under his hoodie in nervous. " I have a girlfriend". Words that Zion didn't need to hear right now because the already broken heart shattered. Zion couldn't believe what he was hearing like it was a lie, it's like Brandon didn't hear a word that Zion said.
"Ok......" Zion said nodding his head out of complete weakness, totally surrendering to that sad aroma he was hiding in his room engulfed him. Zion nodded his way to his phone on the control panel.
"I'll call Edwin and ask him to come to open the doors," Zion said plopping himself in the chair and texting Edwin to pick up his phone. "He'll respond any second now," He told Brandon that was still standing near the door. Brandon felt bad but he can't tell Zion how he felt, he had a girlfriend and he already cheated on her. He scared to hurt her but, in the process, his hurting Zion.
Zion planted his head on the control panel, hands covering his face out of complete sorrow.
What hell is wrong with me? He though on repeat. Who falls in love with their group members? Why couldn't he just keep it to himself and bury it in his head? Can he just laugh it off and hope for everything to go back? Zion's leg stayed tapping rapidly on the floor nervous. Brandon stood next to the door starring at anxious Zion.
He figured that this confession is going to change everything, and he craves for it to not, he knows nothing is going to help. Brandon contemplated whether he should talk or not. He figured Edwin, Nick, NEV, and management aren't answer at this moment he should make it less awkward. Brandon repeatedly opened his mouth to speak but stop occasionally out of nervousness. Right before another attempt, Zion abruptly got up.
"I'm going to face the fact that I'm at a loss and you will never love me the way I love you. I know me enough to say that I'm not going to get over you and I know you enough to assume....we can go back, back when you didn't know so I'll erase it all if you will let me" Zion said whole-heartedly. Brandon first reacted in shock with the deal and damn he would hop to the offer until he noticed how painfully that's going to be Zion. How hard it's going to be to smile his feelings away and out of this foolish pity here Brandon pressing stop on his stopwatch.
Brandon crashed his lips onto Zion 'emotionless'. Brandon is going to stress like hell later but how hard it is to think logically and practically when you want the person in front of you here and now. It's not like he didn't like Zion, he wouldn't have kissed him if he did and he was well aware of the potential attraction after that night, but Brandon can keep it....just not right now. Zion was a little hesitant to open his body again to this time of vulnerability after being rejected but was he thinking about that when Brandon kisses went from lips to the tongue. After a moment of weakness Zion pushed him off.
"Brandon, what are you doing?" Zion said slowly detaching Brandon from his body. Brandon looked at Zion in confusion, I mean first he though isn't this what you wanted but he concluded that he wanted this. Brandon's lips formed a big grin flashing his teeth. He walked the control panel and leaned against it.
"I'm not thinking, Zion. This is a chance to not think. You can think Zion or led with your feeling here and right now because I'm not going to fight you. You can either zone out the issues that wait behind the door or stop thinking.........it's on you" Brandon said giving the option to do this one last time. Brandon couldn't even think of what he was doing, he was zoning out Maggie, the member, his manager, and his family to do what he wants behind this closed door that may not ever happen again. Zion should've thought twice but he didn't hesitate to push Brandon up on the panel to have him sitting on the board. Brandon was shocked but waited patiently for Zion to act but the abrupt move only made it more exciting. Brandon giggled out of excitement and placed his hands-on Zion's face to tilt it into a kiss.
