the light

this one's for you

when you're not here,
sitting right by my side,
giving me playful hugs,
or calling me names,
empty seconds
begins to feel like time
passing... ticking... ringing...
from days to weeks to months,
an eternity would pass
before you came back to me.

because i carry all of my tension
in my mind,
and until i had spent a day without you,
i'd never realized
just how much you meant to me -
and just how much of a fairy tale
my life had become like:
with a routine goodmorning
and a sweet hug goodnight
every single day,
a small playful punch
here and there,
and an obnoxiously lovable hug
in front of your friends
because you know you love me
and you don't care
if your friends see that.