Angel of Light (A Zak Bagans Story)

Chapter 134: Set Back

Chapter 134: Set Back

Zak's Point of View

My entire body was tense as I sat there, gripping Alicia's hand with both of my own, and I watched her face for any signs that she might be waking up.

I don't think I had ever felt worse in my entire life. I was going through so many emotions at once, that they all blurred together in one, unbearable, agony.

I was angry that I hadn't insisted on coming back to the hotel with Alicia, or that I hadn't just taken her back myself. Even though I knew it was an accident, I blamed Officer Shaw for what had happened. Part of me couldn't help but think, despite how horrible the thought was, 'why couldn't this have happened to her, instead of Alicia?'

I was scared of what was going to happen. Would Alicia ever wake up? If she did, would she have any kind of lasting brain damage? What if she died? And probably even more worse...what if she didn't wake up, what would she have wanted, if she knew this situation was coming. Would she want to be like this for as long as possible, in case she woke up? Or would she want the decision to be made to have her taken off life support. I knew Cheryl was her next of kin, thanks to Aaron notifying me of it earlier, but I hoped I would have a say. Or maybe Cheryl would just leave the decision up to me. Would I have to decide whether to leave my girlfriend on life support, or to take her off it...?

The mere thought made me feel sick.

I felt helpless, sitting here watching Alicia just lying there, with all these machines hooked up to her. I was so used to being in control of everything because of "Ghost Adventures", now that I had no control at all, it was absolutely maddening.

I kept shifting in my seat, unable to get comfortable, nor sit still. After a period of time, I got so frustrated I had to stand up, reluctantly letting go of Alicia's hand, and paced around her hospital room. I was so restless and agitated, I didn't know what to do with myself.

My thoughts drifted back to the moment Dr. Hamza had entered the waiting room to update me with Alicia's test results...

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"How is she?" I asked softly, as Aaron finally returned from outside, where he had been talking on the phone to Cheryl. He must have been on the phone with her for nearly an hour.

"Awful," Aaron said, sighing sadly as he sat down next to me. "She wants to be here so bad, but she knows it'll take time to get here. She's terrified she won't get to see Ali, if..." Aaron started, but then cut himself off.

I knew what he was going to say. What if Cheryl didn't get to see Alicia one last time before she passed away.

I shook my head slightly.

"I get it...I understand," I said softly, understanding, but not wanting to dwell on the topic. "What is she going to do?" I asked.

"I managed to convince her to at least wait until we find out Alicia's test results, and go from there," Aaron said. "She's not entirely happy with it, but she understands it's probably the best option for now," Aaron explained.

"Yeah, I think so too," I replied. "Mom offered to fly out right away, but I said we might as well wait and see how serious Alicia's injuries are," I explained.

"All we can do for now, bro," Aaron said, and I nodded in response. "While I was outside, I called Billy and informed him of the latest," Aaron added.

"Oh man, thanks bro, I didn't even think-" I began, but Aaron cut me off.

"It's okay, they understand. They're finished with the police department for now, unless anything new surfaces. They were just finishing gathering up the gear, and then they were going to head back to the hotel to drop it off, and then come here," Aaron explained.