[Tin x Can] If Only I Could Trust

Chapter 17: Part 1

A/N: Above is a preview of next chapter. Hmmm.

'Who the fuck are you?'

The person in question had yet to recover their shock. The desperation took over and I snatched their shirt, jerking the imposter. My heart began to ache at what I was doing because he had Can's face. Fake or not I couldn't hurt him. My fist balled up and I threw him away from me. I was a web of frayed nerves when I looked at the supposed face of my significant other. His eyes darted to the door as if he was going to make a run for it. I stepped over in front of it, squashing that dream.

'TALK!' I yelled, about to move forward.

'I-I'm Plan...'

I lost my ability to breathe when it was confirmed from his mouth. I fell back against the door and my heart began to race. I swayed a second as my head became light and spots floated in front of my eyes. All I could think of was where was my Can is now and who would do this to us.

Of course, it would be Tul. I thought back to the hospital and how Can looked so lifeless there before his miraculous recovery as this doppelganger. Was he alive? Was he dead? I didn't want to think of the last one. All I wanted, either way, was to know where he was. I intended not to cry but as usual Can owned such a soft part of my heart that I couldn't fight the tears knowing that he wasn't with me. I was scared of what might be happening to him with my brother. I know how much he hated me and I know how much he hated Can for so called taking me from him.

I felt my mended heart breaking. I finally took a deep breath because I was starved for oxygen. No, I was starved for Can. I have been living with someone I don't know. I always thought that Can will be it for me but I slept with someone else. Granted I didn't know but I noticed subtle differences but I could have never imagined this. I wanted to hope that our life is better and I didn't think too much about my mother letting me be with him. Was she in on it too?

After seeing my tears, the Can in front of me looked sad. He looked as if he wanted to comfort me. But I hated him now more than I've ever hated anyone because I cheated. My heart hurts so badly but I finally pull myself together enough to stand straight.

'Where is Can?' I needed to know this answer, if he wasn't alive then I didn't want to be either.

'I can't tell you, because I was told not to tell you anything but I thought you would hit me so I don't want to be hurt on my head.'

'You're telling me all this because you're scared to be hit? Do you know what you did to me? Do you know what you've done to Can? What about yourself? Don't you have any fucking morals or respect? How old are you huh?'

'I'm 18 but I ... I'm sick so I needed money and I was minding my business at school when I was approached by some people and they offered me a job. I swear I didn't know in the beginning what I was going to be doing. They told me I almost looked identical to someone. They told me that they knew I was sick and that I needed money. Turn it down, I die if I don't have the surgery. I don't know how I was going to get it passed you but in a few weeks I'll die if I don't get it.' His eyes were so sincere but I looked away. This is a good example of why I dislike poor people.

'You think giving me such a sob story here will help you? I don't give a damn about your life. All I care about is Can. I don't give a fuck if you have a face like his and I don't give a fuck if you have a body like his. You will never be him and I will never want you.'

'I didn't intend for it to go this far. She said...' He was wringing his hands in stress.

'She? She who?'

Now it was time for his breath to increase as he stood in front of me shaking. 'I can't tell you...'

'If you don't tell me you won't have to wait for your surgery or lack thereof because I'll kill you right here.' I had doubts I can even hurt him knowing Plan looks like the love of my life. Regardless, there was a deep rooted rage that was starting to creep up from the pits of my stomach. I wanted to hurt someone.

'A woman... she said that she used to be in love with you. Well she said she's still in love with you but you don't want her and that she has to protect her son from your brother.' Hin's sister did this? 'Which I don't even know who Tul is really because I've never met him. I just know what she said and what you said - that he's your brother.'

'I don't care about this! Where is Can?! I'm trying so hard not to hurt you, but the longer you take to tell me where my wife is the faster it will take for me to pull all your organs out your body from your throat!'

He began to tremble more. 'I really didn't want to do this... you don't understand okay. I'm the breadwinner for my family. I have younger siblings to take care of and if I die then they're going to the foster system. I'm sure you can understand how hard that is. Bad things happen to you there. I should know...'

I roared out all my rage and I grabbed his shirt with both of my hands and I gripped with all of my might trying to restrain myself. 'I don't care about you! Now tell me now before I hurt you! Where... Is... Can!!!'

'He's at your parents house.' He blurted quickly.

'What?' My hands fell from shock when I realized something. The heavily guarded room, Can was the reason for it.

'He's at your parent's house in a room. I've been told he's not doing good but I don't know how much I can trust. Your mom, she just wanted you to be straight and she felt for the woman, your ex. They formed this stupid little plan to destroy your life with him. And I apologize for being part of that. In the beginning, I didn't care what I was doing but I quickly began to care for you. Last night was my first time...with anyone... male or female.' I didn't know what to say. I was speechless as I gathered my thoughts. 'I'm sorry for letting you think I was him. I'm also sorry for falling in love with you so quickly. I promise you I tried to call it off in the beginning but they reminded me about my siblings and they said that if they went to the foster system I'll never get them back. I wanted to save them more than myself if you could believe me.'

'You're coming with me. We're going to go home and visit my dear family.'

'Haven't you been listening? We can't do that, I won't do that. They will take all the money back from me and what will I do?'

'What exactly is wrong with you anyway?' I didn't want to feel anything for him but it was kind of hard after doing what we did last night and that he looks like him.

'I have cancer in my brain and I need to take it out. Also, I'll live a life that's worse than death in the next few months if I don't have this surgery...I'm sorry I did this to you, maybe I deserve to die.'

I felt my heart soften against my will. 'You don't deserve to die. You're a victim as much as me. Just because I feel bad for you doesn't mean I forgive you.' People sure do know how to fuck my life, don't they?

'Tin, I really do love you now. What do I do?'

'If you really do and you're not acting, you have to do the right thing.'

He started crying and as much as I don't want it to, it pulled at my heart. 'We'll go... I have one favor to ask you.' I nodded. 'I have nothing. Protect my family if something happens to me. Please take care of them. They say you're not a nice guy, they say you're heartless. But I know you're not. And I know I'm not Can. But please, they're innocent.'

Aren't we all? 'All right. You have my word.'

'Thank you!' Before I could stop him he was hugging me and it took everything in my soul not to hug him back. He's not Can, he's not Can, he's NOT Can. I pushed him away abruptly, brushing off the front of my shirt as if I was disgusted by him.

'Don't touch me again. Now, get your shit and let's go.'

A/N: Cats out the bag. Penny for your thoughts?