eros • tk

eleven

"My favorite song is Nothing To Lose.."

Nothing to lose? I just raised my eyebrows, thinking what is that song.

"Oh? I bet you don't know that song haha, right?" - he chuckled and I just smiled and nod then I sigh

"Yeah, I don't know that song. Who's the singer hmm?"

"It's a group, it's Michael Learns To Rock" - he said, smiling

I smiled and nod at him, feeling woah of the group name.

"Woah? Their name is unique haha" - I chuckled and he just smiled

"But why 'nothing to lose' is your favorite song?" - I ask because I want to know why, and why not my song UGH.

He raised his eyebrows and form his lips to O shape, can't help but burst my heart to uwu aish cutie. He then look to my posters at the wall, then I look at him confuse.

"W-Why are you so curious?" - he ask, smiling a bit

"I just want to know? because... I thought... one of Jungkook's songs is your favorite song.." - I chuckled and he just nod

"Ah... It's my favorite because I dedicated that song to him.." - he said then he bite his lips

I knitted my eyebrows then I hit my tounge on the wall of my mouth. Him? Who the fuck is him?

"Him?"

He smiled shyly then he nod.

"Yes, to Jungkookie ofcourse!" - he giggles

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For me? I don't know but my mood suddenly change, I felt myself smiling and I bite my lips feeling shy a bit.

"Really?" - I chuckled

He smiled cutely and he look at my posters. I just look at him with my heart beats fast.

"Yes... I-I decided to dedicated it to him because I feel related to the lyrics of that song, just a bit hehe.. and sometimes... I-I imagine that he's mine and I'm his.... but... I-I know I will never be his man hehe.." - he then look down, biting his lips

I just look at him.. I don't know what to feel right now... All I know is I felt hurt and happy at the same time...

"But what If.. you became his man?" - I don't know what came up to me to said that

He look at me, blushing and he chuckled. I just smiled slightly, don't know what to fucking feel.

"H-Haha! I told you, I-It's impossible Gguk. It's impossible because I don't deserved him, h-he doesn't deserved me.." - he smiled but I know it's fake

I felt a pang on my chest. I don't deserved him and he doesn't deserved me? Why is he fucking thinking that?

"It's not impossible.." - I said seriously

He smile suddenly drop and he just stay silent. He bite his lips and look down and just play with his fingers.

I don't know but I suddenly felt sadness.. It's looks like I'm giving him hope but he don't want to take it because he know that It's really impossible as a fan... If only he knew... If only he knew that's It's not impossible to him to became mine... If only he knew that I'm Jeon Jungkook... If only he knew...

Silent...

Silent...

"Do you really love him as a man?" - I suddenly ask