again

four.

"You see, you were wrong about something else in the prophecy, my first love was never Eve. It was you.
It was you Chloe, it always has been."

Lucifers words sting as tears form in my eye, I crumble to the floor.
"No!" I scream, crying. It's not fair.

Once again, I sit at Lucifers penthouse, awaiting his return- the one that will likely never come.
I'm not okay, but I'm trying to be.

I look out from the floor of the balcony into the sky, maybe if I blink, he might show up in front of my eyes as quickly as he disappeared.
I hope beyond hope but nothing can bring the devil back to earth, how can you even ask god a favour like that- favours are Lucifers thing.

I drag myself back to the bar and grab the first full bottle I see,
Chugging it, I start to wonder,
I don't care what Lucifer did, he didn't deserve to be cast to hell, I see how it effects him everyday but now- I'll never see him again because he had to go back. I wonder how things would've happened if god never cast Lucifer out.

Chugging the bottle, I find his couch and sit down on sorrow,
I can't believe I turned him down for monopoly and face paint to finish a case, I should've had fun with him while I had the chance.

What the hell am i doing? Reminiscing doesn't change anything.
Drinking all his booze won't solve my problems, and it won't bring him back.

I set the bottle down cautiously on the floor beside the couch; I remember the dream I had of Lucifer and I, I smile for a moment- what could have been.

I feel my head get light and I flop down onto the pillow, just for a moment I'll rest my eyes,
Just for a moment.

I awake to the sound of my phone vibrating against the cool floor, I grab it quickly and bring it to my ear,
Somewhere in me, there's hope that's it's Lucifer calming to say it's a joke.

"Decker," I say, stiffly

"Chloe! Hey, we have a case- and man it is such a juicy one you got to see this.-" there's a pause, I assume she's giving Dan the forensics or something, "-You're gonna wanna get down to the precinct." She adds

"Yeah, for sure. I'm on my way."

"Chloe, are you okay?" She asks

"Yes, I'm fine. Just a rough night. I'll see you soon." I reply, hanging up

My head aches as I stand up, accidentally kicking over the bottle I left on the floor, "sorry,"

Looking down, my shirt is stained with alcohol and god knows what else
I walk into Lucifers room and grab one of his shirts off the ground, a dark blue dress shirt- clearly his. I bring it to my face, his scent stained into it, it's all I have left of him now.

The thought brings tears to my eyes but I stop myself, "pull yourself together, Decker."

I tear my shirt off, and button Lucifers up, I tuck it into my pants and grab my phone again.
Time to go to work.

I make a pitstop at home on the way and grab my sunglasses and freshen up a bit so I don't look like a hobo- or a criminal, don't want them to accidentally question me.

I walk into the precinct shakily, expecting to be reprimanded or scolded by anyone, someone?
I make my way to Ellas lab, pausing before I walk in, here goes.

"What do you got for us, Ella?" I ask, Dan and Ella both look at me in shock

"Dang Decker, did you and Lucifer-?" She asks, twisting her fingers, I shake my head "sick shades by the way- are you totally hammered right now?" She asks, a small laugh escaping her mouth as she pulls the sunglasses off

"Uh, no-no nothing like that. Uhm actually- Lucifer is gone Ella." I admit, my voice breaking. I quickly grab the glasses back

"Woah," Ella says, she looks horrified

"Chloe are you sure you should be here right now? You do still have vacation days you can take-" Dan starts, I shake my head

"No. I need to be here, it's best for all of us. Lucifer isn't coming back and I need to move on." I reply, he nods

"Chlo, where'd he go?" Ella asks, i shake my head again, "I don't know. He wanted me to say goodbye though, he'll miss you so very much Ella." I lie, she smiles lightly

"I have an idea! We have Maze, she can track him down right?" Ella asks, I shake my head

"Ella, I don't want him to be here if he doesn't want to be here." I offer

"Yeah but- I deserve a proper goodbye, or a hug or, s-something?" She asks, her voice cracks, her eyes filled with tears

"Ella..." I whisper, engulfing her into a hug, "it's okay, let it out."

She grips onto my shoulder and sobs, "I'm gonna miss him chlo, h-he was like a brother to me." She states, I nod

"I know Ella. I know." I whisper, rubbing her back
Dan watches the floor, he looks stone cold, not unbothered but- like he's hiding his emotions.

"Hey, how about we go out for Pina coladas after we finish the case?" I ask

"Can we just stay in and watch sappy movies?" She asks, I nod

"I don't really want to be in public right now anyways," I admit, she nods

"Me neither,"