𝑲𝑬𝑬𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑰𝑻 𝑹𝑬𝑨𝑳(Eros)

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ITS ARI BIRTHDAY YALLLLLL AYEEEEEE I LOVE ME SOME ARI CHILD, she's a amazing entrepreneur, roll model, and she's a wild beautiful spirit y'all go wish her a happy birthday

Imma give y'all some chapters today maybe go up to 80 ion know yet
Kenen

i sat beside arias bed and held her hand slightly she was asleep but she was ok other than a broken finger.. or  two she was good she stopped breathing but came back because of something called a increase of hormone progesterone which caused her to be out of breath when she woke i thought it was seizure but that would mean bad news

so the hormone progesterone started to increase because of her uterus being enlarged and taking up more space plus i already knew her energy levels increase causes her to pass out

yea you guessed it she was pregnant 1 month pregnant to be exact i never expected for us to find out about a baby like this but i mean god gotta way to telling us all shit weather we wanna hear it or not

during the last couple of hours i did research and found out alot about my IED and i gotta stop thinking its gonna be a cure to this shit cause it isnt and it wont be no time soon i gotta live with it nd cure myself with myslef what if this child has it shit who gonna be strong for him or her when it gets tough i gotta be there and in order to be there i gotta have my own back

i aint tell aria about whats been going on but i guess its time to
baby''i heard her voice say
wassup ma''
oh i was hoping it wasnt you''she groaned snatching her hand away crossing her arms over her chest
i deserve that'' i said as i went to sit on her bed
you damn right''
look lets just talk about it''
ke we talk so much but imma be honest is it you like ,who is the real you when you off the medication you can be a total different person what if you ever go back to that cause ion know how to handle that, is that the real you you have so many personalities and names shit sometimes i forget them''she said easing her body to the head of the bed

there was a long gap of silence before i spoke

im finna be 30 sum baby and ion even know who my real self is at times shit does anybody ion know what the man above is gonna throw my way but i mean im here i think about that diagnosis paper all the time since i got it back and it made me think like damn do i have to be medicated but i mean shit if it makes my love ones happy fuck it , it makes me happy and i can be at my worst and think about those times i need it the medicated kenen is me and i wouldnt even call it medicated i call it a calmer but shit its me i cant run from it hide or get away from it if i want to baby its me weather in ke ,kenen, bae ,dave ,fire ,daddy, son, brother, or whatever i cant hide from it i gotta own me and imma do that for me'' i explained truthfully

you know when i got knocked out i went into this dream and i got home and we were arguing i took my ring off an thre-'' she looked down at her finger and frowned

weres my ring''
we dont need it right now i talked to the mamas''
ok... but i threw it at you and you turned so evil you *eyes watering* you hit me with ya bare hands like i didnt mean shit to you then i passed out and when i woke back up you were chilling like you didnt do shit and then you made me go put makeup on and i was gonna stay cause i thought I could change you *crying* but threw all that all i got that when your on those meds you overthink and being in your head isnt good for you''
it just makes me think of the reality of shit like my cousins and shit and my friend but ive gotten passed that stage i guess in the meds taking process when i go handle buisness baby im getting help for myslef understanding this cause its not easy im learning step my step like you are''
i cant learn if your hiding that stuff from me''
im not gonna be perfect but know im trying you still the first person to except this shit and get me help something my ex didnt do she dealt with the other me didnt get me help stayed down for the money i fucked up also but you different baby super different this all new to me''
this new to me to my first time dating a cartel leader,''she whispered then looked around making me laugh ''a rapper, a real man, and a bit of a looney toon but im here for it all but dont keep me in the dark about stuff and dont ever call me a bitch you here me''
i wanted apologize from the pit of my heart im sorry baby just said it from anger and stress''
stress over what please tell me cause i was ready to shake my ass in the sun''she laughed sticking her tongue out

you wont be shaking shit but a baby bottle at 2 am every night''
nigga you helping to''
you know i am or i wont stop hearing you or the mamas mouth about it for years to come....but baby all imma tell you is police looking at me right now they looking at fire and trying to take down dave"
baby even thoe its gonna be scary imma stand with you threw it all i got you forever''she said to me

i came closer to her wiping her face and kissed her forehead that was a way of me saying i love you and she knew it we had codes and shit for everything thats just how connected we were
i know'' i said pulling her on my chest as i got comfortable so we could lay down she played with my hands and then placed them on her stoumach
we having a baby''
yea i know''
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