One Chance For Redemption

Kabanata 40 - Jealous

Kabanata 40

Jealous

You know that elated feeling when your heart is so full of happiness and excitement that you can't even relax a minute or two? That's exactly what I am feeling right now.

My mind was full of Dale as soon as I tried to close my eyes. Kaya naman kaunti lang ang naitulog ko. I woke up much much earlier sa tamang oras ng gising ko. Pasikat pa lamang ang araw pero mulat na mulat na ako. Even when I am wide awake, I can still see scenarios about me and Dale on the lake atsaka sa tapat ng pintuan ng kwarto ko kung saan ko siya hinalikan.

How strange to dream of him even when I am wide awake. Ganito na yata ako ka patay na patay sakanya.

I watched the rising sun outside my window. Each time I see a beautiful sunrise, I have to pinch myself because I can't believe that I'm awake and not dreaming.

Months ago, I was terrified and panicking on how to save my life in this novel. I have cheated death. Amaury can now, hopefully, avoid her pitiful end the moment my soul went inside her body. 

I planned to have an ally who has the power to protect me. I gave a contract engagement to the most powerful Duke in this Empire, the second lead of this very novel. With his help, I have managed to shake off Beatrice's clutch on my struggling life.

Dale Crescendo dela Fleur became my lifeline in this world. Dahil din sa desisyon ko na baguhin ang buhay ko, na protektahan ang sarili ko... I ended up ruining the whole story. Nabago ang ikot ng relasyon nang bawat character sa novel. Some of it happened dahil hindi iyon naapektuhan ng mga desisyon ko. Pero ang lahat ng may kinalaman sakin ngayon ay nagbago ang takbo ng buhay.

Emeline, the heroine of this story, became a strong, independent woman who doesn't need a man. Nawala ang pagiging damsel in distress niya gaya ng sa original novel. Well, I kindly like the character development of Emeline now. She looks much better like this. She is one strong-willed woman.

Gabriel, my brother and also the male lead... I am not quite sure what had happened to him to get off-course on the novel.. Hindi ko rin alam kung makakabuti ba sakanya to or hindi. Pero sa tingin ko naman ay maayos ang kalagayan niya, so I think it's a good sign.

Mas okay na rin na malayo si Emeline kay Kuya. Emeline deserves much better than my idiotic and stoic brother. And I can feel something about Portia and Gabriel for real.

Pagbalik ko sa mansyon, mag-iimbestiga agad ako sa tunay na relasyon ng dalawang iyon.

About the antagonist, Beatrice, and the Crown Prince... I don't know what's going on about them. Beatrice was missing in action since the spring hunt. Hindi na rin siya nagpapakita hanggang sa ngayon. So, I don't really have a clue about her. The Crown Prince, on the other hand, wasn't engaged with Emeline kaya, I don't think there will be a love triangle anymore. Besides, hindi naman nagdevelopan si Gabriel at Emeline kaya walang love line na magaganap.

And lastly, si Dale. Walang nagbago maliban sa nagkaroon siya ng fiancée, which is ako. I can say that everything is smoothly sailing for him. Kagabi hindi mawala sa isip ko... kung iba kaya ang nilapitan kong tao noon at hindi si Dale, mangyayari rin kaya ang mga pagbabago sa novel ngayon? And if lumapit nga ako kay Dale at ibang salita at contract ang sinabi ko no'ng magkita kaming dalawa, iba rin kaya ang takbo ng buhay namin? Magkagusto ba ako sakanya? Mahahalin ko ba siya kung iba ang naging takbo ng storya naming dalawa?

Sa dinami-dami ng salitang nabuo sa isipan, isa lang ang namukod tangi. In the end, I am thankful.

Thankful for the protection he has given me. Thankful for the another chance for me to change my path. I was so lost months ago, and with him, I have found a light to help me in my journey.