Infinity||H.S.

Close As Strangers

"Wasting time
Talking on a broken line
Telling you I haven't seen your face in ages
I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much
Every night I'm losing you in a thousand faces
Now it feels we're as close as strangers"

Noelle

I jolt awake with a gasp, my throat sore and my back and forehead sweaty. Taking a couple of deep breaths I try to fill my lungs.

My heart is beating fast, way too fast.

Inhale

Count to five

Exhale.

Again

Inhale

Count to five

Exhale

It's been a while since I had one of those dreams, that weren't really dreams. It was like my mind finds pleasure in replaying moments of the past when I'm not in control.

Last time I had one, was the night after Robin's funeral. And then for a month, at least once a week, I had a dream about some past moment with Harry.

And I always waked up sweating, crying and most of the time with my heart trying to escape my ribcage

When I finally calm down, I look around the room.

There's some light coming from the curtain and Harry is still deeply asleep on my bed.

I take off the earphones I still have on and as I unlock my phone to shut Spotify a see that is nearly noon. I have some text, mostly from Thomas but I decide not to answer right away.

I get up from the armchair letting the blanket I had on fall on the ground. My back is a bit sore due to the uncomfortable position I kept sleeping.

I stretch and make my way to my drawer to take some underwear and fresh clothes.

I need to shower.

I value whether or not to wake Harry. But when I turn to him his peaceful expression while he sleeps stops me from doing so

Unlocking my bedroom door I step outside paying attention do make less noise possible as I shut it behind me.

As I walk to the bathroom I see Mae and my Dad's bedroom doors open so I listen for some sounds from downstairs but I hear nothing.