Soulmate

Eighteen: Jin

July 4, 2019
Seoul, South Korea

"Are you all packed up for Japan?"

Yoongi claps me on the back and steals a piece of spicy fried chicken off of my plate. I simply sigh as he giggle evilly.

"I didn't really have much to pack," I say plainly. "Nothing more than chargers, a few clothes, and RJ things."

"I can't believe we're leaving again," Yoongi says, a hint of sadness to his voice. "And for almost an entire month? I'm just glad Areum won't be alone this time."

"Did you miss her over tour?" I ask. Yoongi is the best at hiding his feelings. He keeps himself from getting attached to people, even his soulmate. They're mature in their feelings for each other.

To my surprise, he nods and confesses his feelings to me. "I did. I missed her a lot. This tour felt longer than it was. Maybe it's because she's living with us now, I don't know. If she wasn't working, she would've been traveling with us."

I just nod and resume eating my chicken. I love chicken. Chicken never treats you or your friends and family badly; chicken never leaves you for selfish reasons. And chicken never makes you feel jealous of its cute relationship.

"How are you handling, hyung?" Yoongi interrupts my chicken appreciation with his deep, mumbly speech. Chicken doesn't interrupt you, either.

"What do you mean?" I ask, shoving a large bite into my mouth.

He rubs the back of his neck and exhales. "I mean with the whole Min-he situation, her having to leave and everything. Doesn't it kind of feel like everything's back to the way it was before?"

I simply chuckle and set my chopsticks on the island countertop. I lean back in my chair and stare up to the painted ceiling.

"I...don't really know what it felt like when she was here," I confess. "I don't know what the whole soulmate thing is supposed to feel like." I cover my face with my hands and rub, rub, rub to relax my tense muscles in my face. "I don't know anything anymore."

I hear the chair beside me scoot out as my younger member sits down. His hand grips onto my shoulder, squeezing comfortingly.

"What's it supposed to feel like, Yoongi?" I ask.

He sighs and his eyes join mine in staring up in thought. "I don't think there's any way soulmates are supposed to feel," he says simply. "It's different for everyone."

"What did you feel when you met Areum?"

Yoongi breathes out a chuckle and drops his hand from my shoulder. "It was like a shock. My whole body felt like there was electricity buzzing under my skin. My tattoo stung a little. But I didn't like her."

I laugh at that, a little confused. "What do you mean?"

"Well, Jungkook always says when he and Hope saw each other, they fell instantly in love."

I roll my eyes and nod. Jungkook wouldn't shut up about it for months.

"That didn't happen," Yoongi says. "We didn't like each other at all; I hated her. I was so disappointed when we met. She was just this shy, nerdy English student at Seoul National University. I thought, 'How on earth can someone like her be paired with someone like me? For the rest of our lives?' I didn't want anything to do with her.

"But, the feeling was apparently mutual. After it sunk in that we were soulmates, she started screaming and shouting all angry, which caught me off guard. She was mad that I wasn't Jungkook." He laughs pretty hard at that, a silent click sound that comes from the back of his throat. "That put me off. And we went a year just kind of...giving each other annoyed updates every so often. But slowly, we did fall in love. Obviously, we're getting married next month."

He smiles widely which makes me smile a bit, seeing him so happy.

"Anyway, hyung," he continues, "my point is, you never know what meeting your soulmate will be like. Jungkook fell in love instantly, Taehyung took a break before starting to get to know Elle, and I waited a whole year before I felt any feelings."

I think on that for a moment. I think I love Min-hee, but I'm not in love with her, that much I know. But there's one thing, beyond love, nagging the back of my mind.

"Min-hee has my tattoo," I say softly. "So why do I doubt that she's my soulmate? Deep down, something doesn't feel right when I kiss her. No matter how right it does feel, there's always something that's almost wrong. And then the text..." I pull out my phone and open my messages with Min-hee. Yoongi leans over to spy at the screen.

"Read at midnight?" he reads in confusion. "Why wouldn't she respond to you?"

"I don't know," I whine. "And it doesn't help with my doubts. What do I do if she's done with me? What if that's it? Am I stuck alone forever?"

"I think you're reading into this a bit," Yoongi tells me.

"Am I? Is it irrational of me to think these things after everything that's happened between us?"

Yoongi puts his arm around me and pulls my shoulder against his body in some kind of shy-guy hug.

"All I'm saying is there's nothing you can do about it," he says simply. "So just keep going. Keep living your life. Take it as a sign to just keep growing and moving. You can't control what she does, all you can do is try to continue on."

He takes my phone gently from my hand and slick is off. "Once today ends, make sure your sadness ends with it. Focus on the Japan concerts and pour yourself into your performance. It'll be okay hyung, it'll work itself out."

He pats me on the back and stands, leaving me alone with my chicken once again.

I sigh, staring down at my half-full plate, and think of his words.

It'll work itself out, I promise myself. And you're gonna be happy again.

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oH mY gOsH iTs BeEn AlMosT tEn wHoLe dAyS hOw HavE yOu SuRviVeD?????!!?

we're getting closer to their break and i'm so readyyyy. sooo much happens, i hope ya'll are ready hehehehe

thank you for 27k on this book :,)

jinnie will be happy again soon

cay💕

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p.s: i miss the boys :((