"please don't leave me" I said to daniel as he nodded and held my hand "i'm not baby, and your parents are coming soon" he said as he kissed my head. I felt another contraction hit and I squeezed his hand harder "ouch baby, are you okay" he asked trying to get his hand out of mine.
when the nurse left, telling us she was going to get the doctor as it was about time to push I gave him a look, "baby what?" daniel asked. "I can't do this" I told him "of course you can, remember you this strong badass women."
"no daniel I can't" I said crying, "I can't be a mother" I told him "yes you can baby, I know you got this" he said. "daniel I can't" I yelled a bit as another contraction hit.
he patted the wet cloth down on my forehead as the doctor walked in, "are we ready to have a baby or what?" she said super excited, "I looked over at daniel as he smiled at her and then looked down to me.
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"babe just hold her please" daniel said and I shook my head "I'm tired" I told him and rolled the other way in bed "babe you haven't just held her" he said, our little girl now crying in his arms.
"baby please" he said, a nurse walked in to check on me and daniel gave her a smile, walking out to the waiting room where all our friends and family were. "is she alright?" my mother asked "she just tired" daniel said.
"let me she her" my dad said and took the crying baby from him, calming her down as daniel finally took a breath, "actually I think something might be wrong with y/n" he told her parents.
"she doesn't want to go hold the baby or even look at it, and right before she was giving birth she was talking about how she can't be a mother, plus she's been a bit down and sleeping a ton, I thought it was just because we are getting closer to the due date" daniel said, extremely worried about her.
"let me go talk to her" her mom said and walked into the room, she walked over her daughter and sat beside her bed "what are you doing" my mom asked, "trying to sleep" I told her and she shook her head.
"when did you stop taking you anti-depression medicine?" she asked me "ive forgotten these past couple weeks" I told her. "you need to get back on them as soon as possible because you just gave a wonderful like to this beautiful babygirl and you don't want to look at her" she said.
"I can't be a mom, look at me" I said as I started crying a bit "I was like this when I had you, I had to seek help, but I got it and did what needed to be done and now I have the best daughter in the world" she told me.
"now I'm going to your house and getting you the pills, you are going to take one everyday and never stop, for your babygirl, so you understand me" she said and I nodded "I need to hear it" she said "I understand"
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two weeks later
we woke up to her elizabeth crying, "i'll get her" I told daniel "are you sure?" he asked me "yes I'm sure, I told you that i'm better" I said and he nodded "Okay" he said and walked to her room.
taking a deep breath and picking her up, I sat on the rocking chair with her and began feeding her. "i'm so sorry mommy's messed up in the head" I told her, "she's was really trying to be better for but when things got out of control I forgot to take my medicine and things got bad"
"but now, everything's going better and as long as mommy takes her medicine then we'll all be okay. I love you elizabeth" I told her.
