The boy next door

Chapter 15

I closed the door behind me and sighed. Rejecting Jun was affecting me more than I expected it. It would have been nice to talk to someone right now. I went up into my room and thought about texting Soojung. But I didn't want to disturb her so my eyes automatically wandered to Jungkook's window.

And what I saw broke my heart into pieces. He was standing in his room kissing a girl without the curtains closed. I bit my lower lip and quickly shut my curtain so I didn't have to look at this scene.

My eyes filled with tears and I broke down on the floor. I didn't know why it hurt me so much seeing him with another girl. Maybe I thought he had changed. For my sake. Why would I think that? Why would he even care about me? I was such a fool.

I got up and wiped my tears. I had to get rid of my feelings for Jungkook. He'd never change, he'd stay the playboy and always trample on my heart. This would be the last time I cried my eyes out for him.

When I woke up I felt like a new person. I decided I was going to use the weekend to get ahead of myself and make new plans. I ignored Jungkook for the time being and left him alone with his studies. I needed time for myself.

He obviously didn't like being ignored, so when I left for school on Monday morning, he waited for me outside my door.

"Are you done ignoring me, Y/N?", he asked crossing his arms in front of his chest and watched me coming towards him. "Are you mad at me or something?", he asked as I didn't answer.

"Maybe you should stop annoying me and go back to your hoes", I spat leaving him shocked behind.

"Hey, what's up with you?", he asked confused catching up with me after he had recovered.

"I don't want to talk to you", I said coldly keeping my pace.

"Didn't your date go well?", he asked further trying to figure out what's wrong.

"I said I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU", I said enraged storming off to school.

He stopped walking and watched me baffled. There was no way he could understand the reason why I was acting like that. Or even see the connection between what has happened yesterday with that girl and your behaviour.

In school I managed to not cross his path and focus on my studies. Taehyung and Soojung also helped me laugh more again. They didn't ask what has happened. They just wanted to cheer me up. And it worked.

When I went home from school and Jungkook walked up beside me, I gave him a small smile.

"Can I talk to you now?", he asked chuckling because he noticed I was in a better mood now.

"Depends on what you got to say", I answered cheekily.

"Y/N, I still need your help for that test", he said pleading, "please." I sighed and opened the garden gate to my house.

"Okay, come over in fifteen minutes", I said giving in. And like that, we spent another afternoon studying and laughing together.

I almost forgot about the incident on Friday night, but when his phone buzzed, the dark memory was present again. He frowned looking at the screen and sighed.

"Sorry, Y/N", he apologised getting up, "I need to go now." I gulped and nodded.

"You know where the door is."

He didn't miss the slight mad undertone of my words, but he just nodded resignated and left. I felt the tears built up inside of me again and I shook my head vigorously.

"No, no, no. I won't cry. He's not worth it", I whispered and clenched my fist. I needed to find a way to get over him, fast.

And I found a way, a very simple one. I helped him with his studies and with my help he also passed it. After the test we stayed very good friends since we were still neighbours and we got along really well. But I knew my way to push my feelings aside. I started going out with a bunch of guys, who I met in the club.

At first I thought it was a great idea, but the relationships neither helped me forget Jungkook nor worked out. I was only going through one heartbreak after another. And Jungkook had to cope with the consequences. As well as this Friday night.

I was at a house party with my current boyfriend Cho, later in the evening my ex, enjoying life as much as possible. That night I actually didn't plan on going out, but when Cho asked me I considered it.

While I was thinking about joining him, my eyes automatically drifted to Jungkook's dark room. As soon as I noticed I was thinking of him, I accepted immediately. I'd do everything to get my mind off him.

To forget my sorrow I drank a lot and eventually too much. I became really sick and I wanted to go home with Cho, but I couldn't find him. I asked around and a lot of party guests said they saw him with another girl. I decided to look upstairs and I found him cheating on me. Like my last boyfriend.

I was too drunk to actually cry but I felt how my heart was crumbling again. Before I left I took another round of shots, just to make sure I could numb the pain in my heart for a bit longer.

I stumbled into the night babbling absurd stuff and tried to find my way back home. I searched for my keys when I was in front of my house, but there was no chance I could find it with my blurry vision.

"Ah, darn it", I cursed and decided just to ring the bell, not caring what my parents would think.

The moment I pressed the door bell, I realised I made a great mistake.

"That's not my house", I mumbled confused, and travelled my eyes up from to floor to meet Jungkook's when he appeared in the doorway.

"No, it's not yours", he said shaking his head, "and it's two in the morning."

"I'm s-sorry", I said shaking because I was freezing. He noticed and immediately supported me helping me inside.

"Why again?", he asked desperately and tucked my hair behind my ear, "why are you doing this to yourself?"

But I didn't answer because I was already blacked out.